On Mission ~ A Follower of The Way

New Blog

2010-09-06T18:27:00.001-04:00

It has been quite some time since I have posted on this blog. I do not wish to delete it, however, since there are some posts with images and information that some may find useful still. I will not post daily, but you can keep up with me on the blog at my website: http://www.louismorgan.info/. Thanks!

My Journey to Sunrise -- The Dawn of a New Day

2010-03-11T13:46:00.004-05:00

The last two weeks have brought with them a return to "feeling normal" again. I am grateful. Grief is a process, and I've found it moves at its own pace. 2009 had many joys and accomplishments, but the final (cherished) days with my grandfather during the summer, saying goodbye to him in August, and then watching Alzheimer's take away my great aunt's memory three weeks later... it took a tremendous toll on me. Just when I thought I was moving forward, Matt's unexpected death in January reopened the wounds of sadness. I found I needed time to draw away to heal, process through the loss, and reflect on the impact of these experiences. I am thankful my loved ones are no longer in pain, but I am honest enough to say I wish I could still enjoy their company, see their smile, hear their laugh. And while I know God has been with me on this journey, I confess there have been some days of deep sadness, the sting of loss, and some moments of darkness. But now, I'm beginning to see the sun rise again.

The peace of God has brought comfort to me. Happiness has returned to my heart. I feel like I've been walking in a fog, but it is now lifting as a new morning is dawning in my life. Thinking about this earlier today, I was reminded of the early morning sunrise along Pearl River in my Mississippi hometown. As darkness turns to dawn, often there is fog. Then as the sun rises, the fog dissipates. One can see clearly. That is where I am at today-- and for the last two weeks. The fog is moving out as the sun is rising. The "routine" of life of the last few months is being replaced with the pure joy of living that is my “normal” state of being. I’ve learned many lessons as a result of these losses, come face-to-face with my own strengths and weaknesses, and realized the sacredness of simple things once taken for granted and insignificance of other things which once seemed so important. Through it all, I have God’s Spirit and presence. It has been a productive time of introspection, a needed time of healing, and now I am ready to continue my journey. I’m grateful for the sunrise, and I’m excited about walking forward into this new day.

Today I am encouraged by the words recorded in Luke, chapter 1 (v. 78-79, ESV) in which Zechariah, who had been silent for several months, was able to speak forth a prophecy at the birth of his son, John the Baptist. These Bible verses seem applicable to the way I feel today:

“Because of the tender mercy of our God,
whereby the sunrise shall visit us from on high
to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the way of peace."

Going to Miss You, Matt!

2010-02-06T23:21:00.008-05:00

Matthew Brent Addis
(1984 - 2010)

Less than a week after my previous blog post, I received a call that a close friend (more like a brother) had been rushed to the hospital in South Carolina after collapsing at home. Matt Addis passed away a few days later on Tuesday, January 19, 2010. He was only 25 years old.

Matt's older brother, Blaine, was a close friend in college. I've known the family for 15 years and have considered Matt and Blaine more like my brothers than just friends. I spent Christmas this year with the Addis family (which has grown to include Blaine's wife and daughters). Little did I know at Christmas that less than a month later I would return for Matt's funeral.

At Christmas Matt was telling me how he wanted to travel to Mississippi and Louisiana. He was intrigued with Creole culture and excited that he and individuals in Louisiana bayou country had a shared passion (catching turtles). He had hoped to travel to Morgantown, Mississippi, to visit with my parents and then make his way to southern Louisiana to see first-hand the Cajun and Creole culture. He even found a friend who was willing to drive him, but Matt passed away before being able to make the trip.

Matt was well-loved, and the response from the local community at his memorial service was amazing. Matt loved the outdoors, wildlife, and country music, and each of these things were incorporated into his memorial service in some way. In the weeks since his funeral, I often find myself saying, "I miss you, Matt... just knowing you aren't in South Carolina." And yet, I know his health had not been good since his burn in 2008. Some days we just have to live in the questions and trust God when we do not seem to have any answers. I have found God is big enough for our questions. I know all the family appreciates your prayers.

Most who know me well have heard about my South Carolina "family." Others who have followed this blog for a couple of years probably remember a previous post requesting prayer for Matt when he received a severe electrical burn in June 2008. You can read that post by clicking on this link.

"Matt, I miss you already!"
Link to "Silver Wings" by Merle Haggard on YouTube.com

The Long Silence

2010-01-10T18:12:00.006-05:00

It has been 5 months since I posted last. I've logged on a few times since then, but I didn't feel it was the right time to share my thoughts. I entered a time of grief and deep introspection, and I am now emerging with clearer focus and understanding about my role in this mission to which Christ has called me. I will post soon some of the things I have learned in this process.

On August 8th my paternal grandfather, Feldon "Bud" Morgan, passed away. Three weeks later my great aunt's condition of Alzheimer's made a change to the degree she no longer knows me. These two individuals have been some of the most significant role models in my life-- my grandfather showed me what it means to live as a good man; my great aunt Opal Morgan has always been the most consistent encourager of my educational pursuits. Growing up in a small, nurturing community surrounded by relatives allowed me the privilege of forming close relationships with my family. Although I have lived 500 miles away from them for 16 years, I continued to talk with them at least once each week. One cannot love someone deeply without feeling the loss when such a vital relationship ends or changes so drastically. Nonetheless, I know how abundantly blessed I have been to have such individuals in my life for so long.

These months of blogging silence have been productive for me. It has been a time when I realized I needed to be still and allow God's healing power to renew me. It was not a time for me to share, it was a time for me to receive. Now I have a renewed sense of what is important and a clearer vision of the ministry to which God is calling me. Soon I will post about the impact my grandfather's life has had on me, as well as where I believe God is directing me as I seek to follow Him. Also, I am in the process of refining this blog and updating its links to other bloggers, and I hope to link it with my professional blog at http://www.louismorgan.info/.

So, please forgive me for the silence, but know it has been a tremendous time of inner development for me. Our God is good, and His mercies really are new every morning. Blessings to you today!

Mississippi Church of God history book available online

2009-08-03T14:34:00.008-04:00

The last 3 months I've been designing a book on the history of the Church of God in Mississippi. I uploaded the 131-page book this weekend, and it is available for free download online at www.morgantowncog.org/history.htm

This history traces the beginning of the Church of God in Mississippi in 1909 and its development through the mid-1940s. The book is interactive with embedded audio and video files, including a complete sermon by Ralph Boyles, a sermon excerpt by G.G. Williams, a testimony by Mamie Williams, a 1919 song written by Annie Heath and M.S. Lemons, and a video of Thelma Neal singing "Over There" at the 1993 Mississippi Church of God Camp Meeting.

I hope to expand the history to the current time by the year 2012, which will be 100 years since the first Church of God congregation was officialy organized in Mississippi.

This work represents more than 20 years of personal research and interviews, beginning in my early teens. I'm pleased to provide it free-of-charge to the people of Mississippi, many of whom served as mentors in my early Christian formation.

I hope this history educates, inspires, and blesses those who read it. Please help me spread the word about it. Also, if anyone notices anything that is incorrect, please let me know. Enjoy!

Outstanding Graduate Award acceptance speech

2009-05-27T00:28:00.001-04:00

To those who've been asking, a friend has posted on YouTube the acceptance speech I gave upon receiving the Outstanding Graduate Award for the Ph.D. in Organizational Leadership at Regent University in Virginia Beach, Virginia. I'm grateful to Dr. Catherine Self (and Barney and Aimee) for capturing the speech on video. (Regent University School of Global Leadership and Entrepreneurship - Doctoral Hooding and Commissioning Ceremony - May 8, 2009).

Remembering 'Mama Priest' -- 100 Years As Our Family's Spiritual Matriarch

2009-05-10T09:17:00.007-04:00

Today is memorable for me. It is appropriate that Mother’s Day falls on the 100th anniversary of when the matriarch of my family experienced a personal awakening that changed the course of our family.

On May 10, 1909, my great-great grandmother, Clara McHann Allison Priest, received the Pentecostal baptism of the Holy Spirit accompanied with speaking in a language she did not know. She then became an evangelist, church planter, and pastor in the Church of God and Church of God of Prophecy in Mississippi and Louisiana. Our family continues to receive inspiration from the life testimony of “Mama Priest”.

And, I was able to speak of her in a speech I gave this weekend in my own graduation ceremony (earned a Ph.D. in Organizational Leadership from Regent University). I desire to be faithful to my calling and allow God to use me to minister to others (both in corporate and religious settings) as did my great-great grandmother in the communities where she lived.

When the Church of God was first introduced into Mississippi in 1909, my great-great grandmother was among those first participants. She lived in Cascilla, Mississippi, near the Stonefield Tabernacle where the services were conducted by Reverend L.P. Adams, a Church of God minister from Memphis, TN.

The revival continued for many weeks, and on May 10, 1909, the tabernacle was crowded as the service began. Clara McHann Allison, a member of the Stonefield Holiness Church (then a Free Methodist congregation), entered the service with her husband and daughters. Finding no place in which to sit, they made their way to the altar and sat while listening to Reverend Adams deliver the message.

Clara later remembered that during the service “a peculiar, yet wonderful, feeling came over” her. As she worshipped, she began to speak in a language unknown to her. It was then that she realized what was taking place. In her willingness to yield to God and her deep desire to receive a greater portion of His Spirit, He came in and spoke for Himself as she listened to the Word and yielded her tongue to Him. The people in the church had never before seen anyone receive the Holy Ghost baptism and called for the area doctor. Upon the physician's arrival he asked Clara how she felt, to which she replied, "Doctor Franklin, I never have been so happy in my life!" She then began speaking in tongues, shouting, and dancing all over the tabernacle as she worshiped in the Spirit and praised the Lord. That day the Lord used Clara for about 4 hours in the Spirit. Her sister-in-law, Maggie Simpson McHann, also received the same experience, at which point an old Spanish soldier living in the area and attending the service told everyone she was speaking in Spanish, which language Maggie did not know.

The first service after the revival ended and Reverend Adams returned to Memphis, the meeting at Cascilla began as usual with prayer, singing and testifying. However, when it came time for the message the pastor shared he would not preach anymore until he had received the baptism of the Holy Spirit. It was then that the congregation called upon Clara to preach. Although unprepared, she made her way to the pulpit and read for her text Revelation 22:17: "The Spirit and the Bride say come and let him that heareth say come and let him athirst, come and whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely." As she preached several individuals in the congregation also experienced the Pentecostal baptism, and that morning’s service did not conclude until about 3 o'clock in the afternoon as people eagerly responded to the Holy Spirit.

When Clara’s husband died of typhoid fever in 1913, she raised five daughters on her own—working in the fields and preaching when she could. Family stories abound of how they would have no food left and then gather around the table and ask God to provide. Often strangers would knock on the door and say, "I thought you might be able to use this" and give them crates of food.

In 1917 Clara married Reverend James Thomas “J.T.” Priest, the young Church of God pastor assigned to the Stonefield church. Tommy and Clara Priest spent their remaining years pastoring and planting churches with the Church of God, and then with the Church of God of Prophecy. (They continue to have descendants active in both denominations). For the rest of their marriage they began and ended each day with Bible reading and long prayers, in which all individuals staying in their home had to participate, including the numerous drifters who were brought to their home by local police regularly.

J.T. Priest also served as the overseer of the Church of God of Prophecy congregations in Louisiana, and Clara coordinated the state activities for raising funds for world missions. Following the tenure as overseer of Louisiana, they planted a church in McComb, Mississippi, where they remained pastors until their health failed. They relocated to Morgantown, Mississippi in 1958 to be near their children. Clara died at Morgantown in April 1959 at age 78, just a few weeks away from the 50th anniversary of the spiritual experience which changed the course of her life, that of her family, and many to whom she ministered so faithfully.

Today, 100 years after my great-great grandmother’s spiritual experience I reflect on her life and call her blessed. How appropriate today is also Mother’s Day!

The first photo is of Clara Allison Priest in the early 1950s. The second photo is of 4 generations in 1948 (L-R): Feldon "Bud" Morgan holding his son (and my dad) Larry, Audrey Allison Morgan, and Clara McHann Allison Priest.

Happy 100th Anniversary, Church of God in Mississippi!

2009-04-24T13:42:00.010-04:00

This weekend marks the 100th anniversary of the first Church of God revival in Mississippi. Reverend L.P. Adams (and a few members from his church) conducted the first service at Cascilla (Tallahatchie County), Mississippi, on April 25, 1909. This was at the Stonefield Holiness Tabernacle, which was part of the Free Methodist denomination. Adams was pastor of a church in Memphis, Tennessee, which united with the Church of God (Cleveland, TN) in 1908. Adams was also licensed with the Church of God at this time, even assisting A.J. Tomlinson in signing credentials for other ministers (see below).*

The first persons to receive the pentecostal baptism of the Holy Spirit during this meeting was Clara McHann Allison and her sister-in-law Maggie Simpson McHann. Clara experienced her pentecostal baptism on May 10, 1909, and was then called upon to preach after L.P. Adams had closed the revival and returned to Memphis. The following year A.J. Tomlinson conducted services at nearby Friendship Tabernacle, where relatives of the McHann family lived. Each year following, a camp meeting was conducted at Stonefield and Friendship tabernacles.

The first ministers to receive preaching license in Mississippi were commissioned at Stonefield in 1911. In August 1912 the Friendship congregation was the first to officially organize with the Church of God in Mississippi, followed about a month later by another congregation near the Alabama-border town of Artesia, Mississippi. A congregation organized near Cascilla in 1913, which later merged with the Stonefield congregation when it officially united with the Church of God on Janaury 5, 1914.

The ministry of the Church of God in Mississippi has produced two general overseers of the denomination, the first minister with an earned college degree (Bachelor's), and numerous pastors, missionaries, administrative leaders, and educators. This is all possible because of the devoted members (laity and clergy alike) who have been faithful to fulfill the mission of Jesus in their respective communities.

I've almost completed writing and formatting a brief history of the Church of God beginning in Mississippi, which I hope to have available online for FREE download near the first of June. It will include historical photographs, a list of every known church organized in the state (with dates), a list of the location for each annual state convention, and a list of state overseers and their dates of service. A few (very) brief biographies will also be included, with hopes to add to that list on a companion website in the coming months. This is a compilation of more than 20 years of personal interviews and research of Mississippi Church of God history. (I began when I was 10 years old, literally!) This is my gift of appreciation to the Church of God in Mississippi.

Happy 100th Anniversary, Church of God in Mississippi! May we move forward in the mission of Jesus and share the Good News with the world!

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*Adams and his Memphis congregation later left the Church of God and by 1911 had joined the Church of God in Christ (COGIC) under leadership of Charles Harrison Mason. This relationship continued until 1919, when Adams left the COGIC and resigned his church. That congregation later merged with the Assemblies of God and is today known as First Assembly of God of Memphis. Interestingly, Adams returned to the Church of God shortly before his death.

Beautiful Tennessee Mountains

2009-04-23T22:48:00.000-04:00

This was the scene a couple of weeks ago when my longtime friend, Blaine, married Amber in the Tennessee mountains. What an amazing backdrop for a wedding ceremony!

(I am also attaching this image to see if I can now upload texts and pics from my phone).

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My 'Big Bro' on Daystar Christian Television Network today

2009-04-01T13:21:00.004-04:00

J. Lee Grady, editor of Charisma magazine, founder of The Mordecai Project and an international evangelist, was the guest on the Daystar Television Network today. The "Celebration" program aired live at Noon (EST). By tomorrow, an archived video of the program should be available on Daystar's website: http://www.daystar.com/vod/celebration.html

I first met Lee ten years ago this past February. He's been a great friend, spiritual mentor, and Big Bro since then. I am very thankful for his appeal to the Church to maintain balance between the Word and the Holy Spirit in our Christian experience, as well as his reminder to lead with integrity, purity, biblical holiness, and to pursue sincere restoration. I hope you are able to view the program which aired today. Lee answered questions from viewers regarding spiritual discernment, testing spiritual manifestations, and the current state of the Pentecostal and Charismatic movements.

You may also like to read his weekly editorial, Fire in My Bones.

Two State Houses in Two Weeks: MS and TN

2009-03-04T20:45:00.007-05:00

During the the last two weeks I've visited two State Capitol buildings and enjoyed hanging out with legislators.

Mississippi:
On February 17th and 18th I visited with my uncle, Representative Ken Morgan, at the Mississippi State Capitol in Jackson. He introduced me to numerous state leaders. As a relative of Representative Morgan, I was able to be seated on the main floor (as opposed to the balcony) of the House of Representatives during the February 17th session. And, I had the tremendous honor and privilege of opening that day's House session with prayer and leading the men and women of the House in the Pledge of Allegiance to the U.S. Flag. My uncle introduced me, and I also had my photo made with him and Speaker of the House Billy McCoy.

My prayer included appreciation for our Father from whom we can receive guidance, instruction, and provision-- even in the currently difficult times we face. I prayed God would bless the work of the men and women of the House and that they would see their work as God's work. I also prayed that God would guide their decisions as they seek to advance Mississippi through the various agencies and programs for which they are responsible.

The next day I accompanied my aunt, Wanda Morgan, (and other Marion County Republican Women) to a gathering sponsored by the Mississippi Federation of Republican Women held in the Capitol rotunda. Governor Haley Barbour, Lieutenant Governor Phil Bryant, and State Auditor Stacey Pickering were in attendance. I also enjoyed meeting Rita Wray, current president of the Mississippi Federation of Republican Women (MFRW)-- and, significantly, the first African American elected to serve as president of the MFRW. I then joined the Republican women and Republican legislators for lunch at a downtown hotel.

While at the Capitol, I also enjoyed visiting with another Marion County native, Mick Bullock. Mick serves as the Director of Communications for Lieutenant Governor Phil Bryant. And, it was good to see Mark Henry, who serves as Chief of Staff for Lieutenant Governor Phil Bryant. I have known Mark and Kathy Henry for several years--since Kathy served as guidance counselor for the high school I attended.

(I also visited the Mississippi Department of Archives and History, where I researched old newspapers from Tallahatchie County, Mississippi, concerning the beginning of the Church of God in the state in 1909. I then toured the recently renovated Old Capitol Museum, which re-opened in January following a complete renovation after being damaged during Hurricane Katrina. That evening I attended the closing service for the annual prayer conference of the Church of God in Mississippi, where it was great to see many friends-- "hi" to all of you who told me you follow my blog!! Following the evening service I accompanied friends-- Shea and Tanya Brasher, Joseph Williams, Pastor Daniel and Leslie Smith, and Pastor Nick and DeeDee Neese-- to a local restaurant.)

Photos: (top photo) I am standing with my aunt Wanda Morgan and uncle Representative Ken Morgan in the House of Representatives; (photo directly above) The dome of the Old Capitol Museum in Jackson.

Tennessee:
On March 3rd I (and co-worker Lori Mattace) attended the Library Legislative Day in Nashville, Tennessee. I enjoyed visiting with other librarians, library supporters, and members of the TN Library Association from across Tennessee. TN Secretary of State Tre Hargett greeted our group during the morning presentation at the Nashville Public Library. We then enjoyed lunch with our legislators at the Double Tree Inn. Representative Kevin Brooks, who represents the district in which I live and who is a personal friend, sat at our table during lunch. Later, Lori and I visited with Representative Brooks in his office at the Tennessee State Capitol-- and were treated like royalty. Thank you, Rep. Brooks!

It was great to visit with friends Annelle Huggins (Executive Director of TLA), Sue Szostak (President of TLA), Kevin Reynolds (VP of TLA), Jeanne Sugg (State Librarian and Archivist), Jane Pinkston (State Library and Archives), Cathy Farley, Louise Kelly, Susan Earl, Pat Thompson, Vandy Owen, Dinah Harris, Susan Rogers Blakely, and so many others (I should not have started naming names!!). Vandy and Dinah did an excellent job organizing this year's legislative day.

One the way home Lori and I stopped in Franklin to enjoy some Italian gelato at Nucci's. I rarely pass through Nashville that I do not take a detour to Nucci's.

So, the last two weeks I have enjoyed brushing shoulders with the political leaders in Mississippi and Tennessee. Fun times!

Photo: (directly above) I am standing outside the Tennessee State Capitol in Nashville.

Heritage Service at Edgemont Church in Newport, TN

2009-01-31T14:33:00.004-05:00

Recently I conducted a heritage service at Edgemont Church of God near Newport, Tennessee. This congregation is celebrating their 90th anniversary in 2009, and I shared a media presentation of how the local church was organized.

Church of God evangelist L.G. Rouse (pictured left with his family) took the Pentecostal message to this community the last week of January 1919, resulting in the organization of the Church of God there a few months later amid much persecution.

It was a wonderful service, which also included special music by violinist Mark Lewis of Pigeon Forge, Tenn. Following the morning service, a meal was served in the newly constructed fellowship hall. Bishop John Nations serves as local pastor, and he and Mrs. Nations were welcoming and friendly hosts (as always). I enjoyed the fellowship with the congregation and the Nations family.

A summarized version of the story of the establishment of the Edgemont Church of God will appear in the April 2009 issue of the Church of God Evangel. Watch for it online.

A New Experiment: Discovering Common Christian Faith Practices

2009-01-18T15:44:00.008-05:00

Call me restless. Perhaps it is just my thirst for the diverse. Whatever it is, I am finally embarking on a journey I've longed to take for several years. I'm sure I'll come up with a jazzier title, but for now it is my Journey with Jesus.

Over the next few months I'm going to visit numerous churches and places of worship to see how various Christian traditions practice the faith. While planning to stay grounded in my own faith tradition and participating in the worship services at the church I attend locally, I hope to visit other churches periodically. Some will be located in the city in which I live; others will require me to travel. I hope to cross various denominational, social, and racial barriers in this journey. I plan to study the basic doctrinal positions of the churches prior to my visit, hoping this will provide a clearer understanding of worship practices or teaching that differ from my own faith tradition. However, I hope to find the things we share in common. Periodically I'll post an update so those interested can follow along with me.

And, please feel comfortable suggesting churches you think I might like to visit.

Searching for the Balance Between 'Hogwash' and the Holy Spirit: Pondering Pentecostal Expressions

2009-01-10T13:18:00.008-05:00

This morning I decided to catch up with some friends who are in ministry and discover what is happening in their life and ministry these days. Most of these friends have an online presence, so I browsed blogs and websites. Interestingly, I realized (once again!) the diversity that exists among my friends in Christian ministry—Charismatic, Pentecostal, Reformed tradition, Roman Catholic—really all over the place doctrinally and experientially. However, my focus was drawn to the level of diversity existing among my Pentecostal and Charismatic friends. In some cases, it seems these opinions and expressions are as diverse as are the views among my Baptist and Catholic friends. There are many different expressions among my Pentecostal/Charismatic friends, each of whom seems to feel he or she is in the very center of what God’s Spirit is doing in the earth today. (Okay, so how much of this is hype, clever advertising, or genuine truth? Call me a skeptic, but I’ve seen so much promoted in the name of Jesus that is clearly different than the Jesus represented in scripture.) So now, I’m thinking… what is the proper balance in Pentecostalism?

Firstly, I’m not sure I’m comfortable being classified within Pentecostalism. While I am Pentecostal in my experience, I’m not sure it means the same thing as what is often promoted in contemporary Pentecostalism. (And, it is the “ism” part of Pentecostalism that troubles me deeply. I wish to be true to scripture and open to the continual guidance of the Holy Spirit, but what if Pentecostalism has become so structured that it can no longer see “outside the box” of its own religious norms, conditioning, and perceptions? It happens to so many movements.) Having noted that, I wish to reaffirm my belief in the operation of spiritual gifts and the baptism of the Holy Spirit. Nonetheless, more than anything else, I consider myself an individual on a spiritual journey seeking to follow the life and teachings of Jesus Christ as my guide. Going a step further, it is my daily goal to transfer my personal will for the will of God. I desire to be led by the power of His Spirit. I’m not sure what label is appropriate for such a philosophy.

So, what is a Pentecostal to do these days? I turn on the television and hear many things promoted as Pentecostal or Charismatic that do not seem to be properly aligned with scripture. I sit in churches and listen to sermons that seem to be more entertainment-driven than scripture-based. I go to a conference to discover that if I am not communicating with angels on a regular basis or constantly speaking a word of prophecy to someone then I must not be in the “flow” of God’s Spirit. I am made to feel spirituality immature. I see more about personal power, fame, ego, and success than I do about humility, serving others, faithfulness, and sacrifice.

Frankly, friends, I think much of what I hear espoused as Pentecostal expressions today is what my grandmother would call “hogwash”. While I wish to be careful not to discredit a genuine work of God’s Spirit or become so calloused against the fanatical that I fail to embrace the sacred, it seems to me it is most appropriate to use some “old-fashioned horse sense” (another of my grandmother’s sayings, which translated means a person will accept what is real and reject what is not, just like a horse will refuse to move forward when danger is near). Sometimes I feel the Pentecostal movement has become so diluted by various “pet doctrines” that the real power of God’s Spirit has become overshadowed by a less-effective substitute.

After reviewing my Pentecostal/Charismatic friends’ blogs and websites today I am left with a few questions:

What is the central message among Pentecostals and Charismatics? (There is a great deal of talk about Jesus, but I’m not certain He is the central focus any longer).

What is the proper balance between biblical understanding and spiritual expression among Pentecostal/Charismatic groups today?

Please do not misunderstand me. I still believe, but sometimes I am not sure if I still belong.

On Becoming Dr. Morgan – and Gratitude

2008-12-20T10:17:00.002-05:00

I have been absent (mostly) from the blogsphere for several months while writing my doctoral dissertation. I hope to post more frequently now.

Yesterday I defended my dissertation before the committee at Regent University in Virginia Beach, Virginia. I have now earned the Ph.D. with an emphasis in Organizational Leadership. This has been a journey that has consumed my life for the last 3 ½ years (and I am thankful for the personal discipline to press-through in a short time), but I know it has been worth every struggle and joy along the way. I have grown so much (intellectually, developmentally, relationally, and spiritually) during this process. It was a great feeling to hear the committee address me as “Dr. Morgan” at the conclusion of yesterday’s defense. God is good!

My dissertation study was “The Impact of Trust in Confidant on the Relationship Between Self-Disclosure and Job Satisfaction Among Pastoral Leaders in the Church of God of Prophecy in the United States.”

Today I am filled with gratitude to God for His unfailing goodness to me. I am also thankful for the professors who have guided me in this journey, and for my classmates as we encouraged one another and were like “iron-sharpening-iron”. I am also thankful for Lee University in Cleveland, Tennessee, for the support and encouragement throughout this process, as well as to my home church in Mississippi (Morgantown Church of God)-- and especially my family. I am looking forward to spending a few days with them without having to focus on coursework. And, I am very thankful for good friends. I am amazed at the number of people in various parts of the world who I count as dear friends, and know the feeling is mutual. Often I am in awe at God’s love to me personally and to all of us. In recent weeks God has strengthened friendships that are an encouragement to me in my faith-walk. This is an answer to prayer, and just at the right time.

Last night I was talking with a good friend and sharing how God gives us these wonderful opportunities so that we may serve Him and others more effectively. Yes, our personal blessings are a way God shows His love to us personally, but it is also for reasons beyond us. God blesses us so that we may bless others. For several years my goal has been to learn as much as I can and impart that to others. My hope is others will be able to learn from me and then even move beyond what I know. That means we are all moving forward and impacting the Kingdom of God in tremendous ways. And, we are able to accomplish this task only because of the Lord and His strength.

I hope to post more in the coming weeks about things I learned personally in my spiritual journey this last year. I have much to share, and (finally!) I have the time to share it.

I pray you have a wonderful Christmas season. And may you find renewed strength for the coming year to be “on mission” and following The Way, whose birth we celebrate this season.

Brenden Foster's Dying Wish

2008-11-25T16:17:00.001-05:00

Brenden's journey has now ended, but his legacy continues to inspire us.

Thank you, Brenden, for your selfless compassion. What a wonderful mission and legacy you have left us!

CELTIC THUNDER

2008-11-19T14:37:00.001-05:00

Celebrating my Irish Heritage: Celtic Thunder Concert

2008-11-19T14:05:00.006-05:00

No, it wasn’t Saint Patrick’s Day... but it was an amazing experience November 14th as I traveled to South Carolina to visit friends and attend the Celtic Thunder concert. After seeing Celtic Thunder on PBS television, I knew I must attend one of their concerts.

Friday I drove through the beautiful North Carolina mountains to Union, South Carolina to visit with friends for the weekend. That evening I drove to Greenville for the Celtic Thunder concert. After learning there were several major accidents on the Interstate, I opted for the back roads. (I love back roads, so one excuse is as good as another!) Despite the very dense fog and not having traveled some of those back roads before, I was determined to make it to Greenville for the concert… and I did!

On my way, I passed the site of the “Battle of Blackstock” during the American Revolution. This is located on Highway 49 near Cross Anchor on the Union/Spartanburg county line. The battle was fought near the Blackstock family home, thus its name. Interestingly, the Blackstocks who owned that property were my ancestors. And, to add more interest to the story, William Berry Blackstock Sr. was born 1710 in County Antrim, Ireland. [Blackstock’s granddaughter, Mary, married John Beard (also from Ireland) and these Beard ancestors settled much of the area where I am from in Mississippi. Although my Morgan ancestors are from Wales, I have many Irish ancestors-- Blackstock, Beard, Tracey, McHann, Allison, etc.] The fog was especially dense as I passed the entrance to where my Irish-immigrant ancestors once lived and died in SC. How surreal!

The concert lasted more than 2 hours and was full of energy, laughter, fun, and even sentimental moments. The musicians were amazing, and at times listening to the singers I felt enraptured in the sounds of Ireland. This was my early birthday gift to myself this year, and I could not have asked for anything more entertaining and fun.

If Celtic Thunder has an upcoming appearance near you, I encourage you to attend. It is a great show; one I’ve enjoyed more than others in quite some time. I feel certain you will not be disappointed.

I also enjoyed visiting with my friends in South Carolina—Brent, Vicki, Blaine, and Matt. (Some of you may remember my prayer request for Matt, who was burned badly in June and spent many weeks in a Tennessee burn center. I am happy to report that Matt is progressing well. I am amazed at his determination. He is nothing less than a miracle from God. Check out this picture from a recent deer hunt where Matt is posing for a picture. Matt loves the outdoors and has been a great sportsman.) Blaine was an old college friend, and we have been good friends for almost 15 years now. I enjoyed hanging out with him on Saturday. We ate lunch at a mom-and-pop restaurant in Union. Then we drove the South Carolina back roads. I enjoy looking at the pastures, old farms, old homes, rivers, streams, etc. God’s creation inspires me, and I am thankful He allows us to enjoy the many beauty and blessings of life. Saturday evening I joined Blaine and his fiancé, Amber, for a nice meal at the Copper River Grill in Boiling Springs, SC. The food was amazing, and the laughter and fun were added joys. It was a great ending to a wonderful day.

Before returning to Tennessee on Sunday, I enjoyed a delicious family meal prepared by Vicki. Brent’s mom also joined us and added laughter and entertainment to the occasion. Then Vicki surprised me by bringing out a birthday cake with candles and singing “Happy Birthday” to me. (They spoil me in South Carolina!)

I then drove home through the mountains of North Carolina, and I enjoyed seeing a fresh blanket of snow scattered throughout the mountaintops and hillsides. Thankfully I enjoyed seeing the beautiful fall colors of turning leaves on Friday, for most of them were gone on my return trip home Sunday.

It was a wonderful weekend and a special birthday gift. I am thankful for the blessings of friends, inspiring music, God’s creation, and good times. Life is good!

Hanging out in Nashville (and listening to Caleb Collins)

2008-09-21T12:09:00.001-04:00

This weekend I am hanging out in Nashville. It is the first weekend I've had in months where I've not been glued to my computer and writing away on my dissertation proposal. I submitted the proposal Friday afternoon (hallelujah!) and then I headed out-of-town.

I'm staying with friends Cathy and Barney near Nashville, and yesterday we attended a wedding reception for our friend Alina and her husband, Darren. Alina and Darren were married last month in Missouri, and also had a reception here in Tennessee since this is where Alina grew up. I'm very excited for them. Alina and Cathy are classmates from my doctoral program, and (along with Bryan) we've bonded during the last three years of coursework.

Last night I stayed with Cathy and Barney and attended church with them today at Forest Hills Baptist Church. It reminded me of when I was a kid and sometimes attended a Baptist church with my great-grandmother. And, everyone jokes about how I can find connections to people in the strangest places. As we were walking into the church this morning, I noticed a truck with a license plate from my home county in Mississippi. I thought that was pretty cool.

Okay, this should satisfy Cathy, who has been slightly frustrated that I have not updated my blog since before Hurricane Gustav. (And my family made it safely through that, btw). ;-)

At the moment, Cathy is trying to order a Caleb Collins CD online. She was introduced to his music this morning after hearing his CD in my truck. So, I thought I would introduce his music to you as well. Here's a YouTube clip of "Just As I Am".

Gustav: Updates from my family

2008-08-31T20:43:00.003-04:00

I know some readers are connected to my family in some way and would like to know what is going on with them. So, I will post as much information as possible as I receive updates. If any of you receive information about the situation in southern Mississippi, feel free to add it to the comment section.

Please, please remember to pray for all individuals in the path of this hurricane.

For up-to-date reports, check out The Weather Channel.

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Sunday, August 31 - 7PM (CST)

The weather is calm in my hometown (Morgantown, Marion County, Mississippi -- about 65 miles north of the Mississippi Gulf Coast). My dad has made it home from his work in the Gulf, and he has spent the weekend securing items near the house. He also helped my paternal grandparents and great aunt, who live next door to my parents, prepare for the storm.

My maternal grandfather (who lives about 15 miles inland from the Gulf Coast in Harrison County) spent yesterday securing his home and helping other elderly residents of his community to get prepared, including helping a 90-year-old man gather corn from a garden. :-) My grandfather has chosen to remain at his home, and his house should be okay against the winds. He has stocked enough food and also has a couple of generators in case of long-term power outages.

For now, they are just waiting to see what path Gustav chooses to take and how furious he rages. It appears they will be on the northeastern side of where the hurricane will hit land, which is the "dirty zone" where the most damage occurs.

(Image from The Weather Channel).

Recent Travels

2008-08-24T22:56:00.014-04:00

I haven't been able to update as much lately as I would like, but I'm still here. Right now I'm busy with the start of a new academic year at the university, and I'm busy writing my dissertation. But, in the meantime, I thought you might enjoy seeing some pics of my recent travels and activities. (Okay, so mainly it is for my mom to enjoy, but in case there are other "lurkers" out there... enjoy!)

Kilgore, Texas:

Bandera, Texas (and other hill country locations in Bandera and Medina Counties near San Antonio):

This is where I stayed when attending the COG General Assembly in San Antonio. It was a 15-minute drive (or less) to the Convention Center downtown and only $50 a night. I loved the scerenity and the wonderful staff at this retreat center (and it is a great location for a retreat).

Last weekend I took a group of Lee University students to a retirement center in Hixson, Tennessee (near Chattanooga). We had a great time visiting with the residents, singing with them, and even playing a few games of pool. We also met Ms. Christine, who is 101. For her birthday this year she rode a sea-do/jet ski at the lake, and she had pictures to prove it. Amazing and inspiring! We had a group pic taken with her. I drove the small van for our group, so on the way back to campus we made a brief detour to Marble Slab in Chattanooga, where I treated the students to ice cream. It was a great day.

I hope you have a great week. Blessings to you!

Lee University students arrive

2008-08-17T09:27:00.006-04:00

This is one of my favorite weekends of the year-- Lee University students arriving on campus to begin another academic year. The preparation meetings are non-stop during the week, but there is an excitement to it all that energizes me. Incoming freshman students spend Saturday meeting some of the professors and getting a brief orientation to the campus. Saturday evening is always fun for those of us on faculty, as we put on our academic regalia and march in for the Service of Dedication.

In a few minutes I will return to campus for Deke Day, in which all incoming freshman students participate in their first service-learning project while at Lee. We will divide into groups and go to various nursing home / retirement facilities throughout our region. I will be driving a van of students to a facility in Hixson (near Chattanooga). This is always life-changing for some students, and I enjoy seeing how some of them "come alive" during these events.

I will spend all day Monday and Tuesday advising incoming students-- helping them prepare their Fall course schedules. Then Wednesday is the big day when classes begin. I'll teach two classes on Wednesday, and I'm looking forward to it.

I'll try to post a few more pics after today's Deke Day visit.

* These pics are from last year's Deke Day.

Hanging Out with my Big Brother

2008-07-16T17:19:00.009-04:00

What an awesome week! I've been hanging out in Orlando, Florida, with my "Big Brother" / mentor, Lee Grady. He turned 50 last weekend, and his family gave him a huge party. I had a previously-scheduled meeting, so we worked out a plan for me to visit this week.

Monday morning we went canoeing at Wekiwa Springs State Park. I really enjoyed being near the headwaters of the Wekiva River-- seeing alligators, turtles, various fish and birds (including a bald eagle), and crystal clear water. It was a blast. But mostly, I just enjoyed hanging out with one of my best friends. After lunch at Lee's house with his wife and their two youngest daughters, we headed to a water park for the rest of the afternoon. We rode almost every ride-- some of them twice. I was exhausted by the end of the day.

While in Orlando I stayed with Steve Ghiringhelli, who works with Lee and has become a new friend to me as a result of this visit. (I have to say, the guy was super nice to open up his home to someone he'd never met before).

I also spent a day with Lee at his office, where I met several "super nice" individuals with whom I've communicated but never actually met in person. I also attended the lunch prayer meeting with several of the employees. It was a great time.

I met Lee over 9 years ago, and since then he has become a constant friend who prays with me, serves as a mentor, and communicates with me weekly. He calls me his "Little Brother." Sometimes I wonder how in the world someone as important as Lee can find the time to pour into my life, but I'm very blessed God crossed my path with someone who has become such a great friend and "Big Bro."

If you've never read much of Lee's journalistic work, you can check out his weekly online column here.

The Beauty and Blessings of Life

2008-07-15T16:21:00.011-04:00

A few days ago I visited with a great-aunt who spoke about the beauty and blessings of life. Interestingly, this aunt is in the beginning stages of Alzheimer's, but that particular day she was focused on a prayer her mother-in-law often prayed about "the beauty and blessings of life." It made me pause and reflect on the beauty God shares with us and is all around us. And, we can all count His blessings to us-- down to the very air we breathe.

Last week I drove to Eureka Springs, Arkansas, for a retreat. Although the retreat was not exactly what I had hoped, I found small blessings along the way-- especially when beholding the beauty of God's creation.

One of the greatest highlights for me was traveling along the backroads and seeing all of the amazing scenery there. And, I was deeply moved when visiting Thorncrown Chapel, which has glass walls and is located in the woods. I visited this chapel once before as a teenager when my home church sponsored a youth trip to Eureka Springs. I remember feeling the presence of the Lord during that first visit, as well as my sincere prayer to God that He would show me how I should serve Him to minister to others and that my life would come together in a manner pleasing to Him. Last week, I returned to the chapel to offer thanksgiving. I spent about 30 minutes in the chapel praying, reading scripture, and reflecting on the Lord. I again felt a strong presence of the Lord, and I could not hold back the tears as I quietly thanked God for His guidance, direction, and blessings. For almost an hour after leaving the chapel, I drove around (still crying) and thanking God for His most abundant love and grace. I wish I could put into words the inner joy and gratitude I have to God for the way He loves and cares for me. I desire to stay humble before Him-- hidden behind His cross-- that He can use me as an instrument to minister to others and draw them closer to Him.

There are times when I feel as if I am the most blessed and loved person in the world. I am most thankful for the beauty and blessings of life that God has given to me. I pray you are as well.

Please Pray For My Friend Matt Addis -- Severe Electrical Burn

2008-07-05T22:10:00.007-04:00

Please pray for my good friends in South Carolina, the Addis family, and particularly for the youngest son of this family, Matt (age 24). Matt received a severe electrical burn on Friday, June 20th when an electric current of 44,000 volts jumped more than 1 foot from a power line to the top of the pole on the pressure washer Matt was using. Matt and others were washing a friend’s trailer used for hauling a race car. This occurred in Gaffney, South Carolina, and Matt was flown to a hospital in nearby Spartanburg, SC. Thereafter, Matt was flown to the burn center at Vanderbilt University Medical Hospital in Nashville, Tennessee.

Matt received 3rd-degree burns over 50% of his body, from his stomach upward (including chest, back, hands, arms, shoulders, neck, and face). He had two surgeries (one on his chest and the other on his back), but his body began to go into shock and additional surgeries had to be delayed. Then, Matt developed pneumonia and has had some complications with his lungs. (We do understand the seriousness related to lung/respiratory problems in burn patients, but we are continuing to trust the Lord to heal Matt completely).

This week has been much better. By Wednesday (July 2nd) Matt was able to have surgery on one hand and arm. However, he responded so well to that surgery the doctors went ahead and performed surgery on the other hand and arm also. Since Thursday the doctors have noted slight improvement with Matt’s lungs. Today’s x-ray showed a distinct improvement. Although Matt is still in critical condition on the ICU of the burn center, he seems to be making progress (very slowly, but it is progress!).

To acquaint you with Matt: I first met Matt when his brother, Blaine, became a good friend of mine at college. Since then the Addis family has become like a second family, and Matt and Blaine are like brothers to me. Matt is 100% southern, country boy. He loves the outdoors. It is an understatement to refer to him as an avid outdoorsman. I believe he would live in the woods if he could. He enjoys hunting, fishing, caring for animals, etc. On Mother’s Day this year he caught three large turtles for stew and also rescued a baby deer that had been abandoned (see the image made on Mother’s Day 2008 of Matt with his niece and the baby deer). He also has compassion and is willing to help others. He recently moved in with a great-uncle and cared for him until the great-uncle’s death in late May.

Matt is a fighter. He is strong and tough. Please continue to pray for him and his family. In addition, Matt has no insurance, and his parents are staying at a nearby hotel to be close to him for their daily visits. A fund to assist with Matt’s medical expenses has been set up at a bank in his hometown in South Carolina. If you would like to make a donation, please email me by clicking here and I will give you information on how to do so. Thanks for your prayers.

A Response To Revival

2008-06-28T07:19:00.004-04:00

With the recent buzz about services at a Lakeland, Florida, healing revival, I have wanted to post something. However, I've been concerned about how I could express my feelings appropriately. I never wish to condemn something that is a true move of God. However, I also do not wish to highlight something that is based more on emotion than sound doctrine. Ironically, I believe Lakeland is a mixed-bag. I feel there is sincerety and a desire for God, but I believe some of those leading the revival services need more discipleship in their understanding of Biblical truths.

I need to explain that I am Pentecostal-- although I realize this is a loaded term with numerous definitions and stereotypes. For me, being Pentecostal means that I believe the operation of spiritual gifts experienced and practiced by the early followers of Christ (as noted in the New Testament of the Bible) continues in the Church today. I believe the Holy Spirit, which convicts us and draws us to Jesus Christ, is the agent who leads and guides us into all Truth (and Jesus is the Way, Truth, and Life as revealed to us in the Bible). I do believe individuals may have varied experiences with the Holy Spirit, some of which may seem highly emotional. However, I must note that it is not the emotional response that should be highlighted. Instead, I believe we should seek and emphasize the transformative work of God's Spirit that helps us live more closely to the teachings of Jesus. I am less concerned that specific gifts are in operation, but that these gifts are being used to strengthen the Body of Christ in our personal relationship with Him as He empowers us to be His "hands and feet" the world around us.

Having noted this, I must share with you a position paper adopted by the Assemblies of God in 2000. It provides helpful information concerning how one should view revival movements, both biblically and appropriately. Although I am not a member of the Assemblies of God, I am very grateful to them for adopting this statement and making it available publicly. In addition, the current General Superintendent of the Assemblies of God, Dr. George O. Wood, has released a helpful video statement offering "Scriptural Guidelines for Assessing Revivals".

After reading this paper, I want to say "Thank you" to the Assemblies of God. This paper outlines my personal beliefs about revival. Until reading this I thought most Pentecostal groups had sold-out to so many of the popular teachings with which I am uncomfortable (such as teachings emphasizing intense emotional responses and practices that seem to highlight personalities instead of Christ).

I hope you are blessed also by the information shared in the above links.

The Voice of Christ Calling Us To Charity

2008-06-26T20:57:00.005-04:00

"The higher we go, the better we shall hear the voice of Christ." -- Blessed Pier Giorgio Frassati

As the Fourth of July is nearing, I am reminded of Blessed Pier Giorgio Frassati . He was born on April 6, 1901, in Turin, Italy, and he died there on July 4, 1925. It has been noted his "fondness of the epistles of St. Paul sparked his zeal for fraternal charity," and he devoted his life to performing acts of charity. Yet, his interests were many: mountain climbing, the theater, the opera, and visiting museums. He loved art and music, and could quote whole passages of the poet Dante.

This is taken from the FrassatiUSA website:

"According to his sister Luciana, Pier Giorgio copied by hand St. Paul's Hymn of Charity in order to always have it with him. After his death, the countless acts of charity he performed became known. Sometimes it was simply giving away his bus money and walking home. Sometimes it was helping someone find a job. Sometimes it was bringing others to Mass. Sometimes it was writing a note of sympathy upon the death of a friend's relative. Sometimes it was taking a break on a long mountain hike when he was not tired but knew that others were. Sometimes it was giving away his coat or shoes to someone who had none. Sometimes it was the smile that was always on his face or his willingness to sing even though he was always out of tune. Pier Giorgio had no formula for charity other than putting the needs of his neighbor first. He asked, 'What would life be without acts of charity?'"

Currently, a call is going forth for others to continue in performing similar acts of charity. If you are interested in joining others in committing to perform at least one act of charity each day, you may find the FrassatiUSA website helpful.

Travels and Churches

2008-06-08T15:41:00.014-04:00

I enjoy visiting churches and learning more about various traditions of the Christian faith. The last two weekends I've been able to experience three traditions, including the Catholic Church, the Church of God, and the Cumberland Presbyterian Church. Each offer unique expressions of Christian tradition, and I enjoyed my experiences.

Following a meeting in Nashville last weekend, I traveled to Hanceville, Alabama, and had a great stay at the Queen of Peace Guest House. Located in rural Alabama, the setting was serene, inspiring, and spiritual. (I highly recommend this location for anyone needing a personal retreat into the quiet). Having a kitchen in my room, I cooked my dinner and just enjoyed some time for personal reflection. The next morning I attended 7am Mass at the nearby Shrine of the Most Holy Sacrament. I first learned about this from watching EWTN, which is one of my favorite Christian television stations. This is the location where Mother Angelica helped established a Catholic Church. Although I am not Catholic (and not able to participate in receiving the Eucharist), I found the Mass to be a very spiritual experience. Afterward, I spent some time touring the and finding a quiet shade where I read Scripture and reflected on the Lord. I also enjoyed meeting and conversing with Maria, Monica, Jennifer, Thomas, Brother Michael and Brother Paul (each of whom were very helpful in answering my questions).

After leaving Hanceville on Saturday afternoon, I drove to my hometown in Morgantown, Mississippi. There I attended Sunday service at the Morgantown Church of God, where my church membership remains. I enjoyed the music and spiritual atmosphere very much. The Administrative Bishop for the Church of God in Mississippi, Melvin Massey, delivered the morning message, and it was an inspiring sermon. That afternoon my mother and I drove to visit my sister and her family. It was great to visit with my sister, as it had been a long time since I last saw her.

On Monday I visited various relatives throughout the community before driving to Terry, Mississippi, for the opening service of the annual Mississippi Church of God Campmeeting. Church of God First Assistant General Overseer Raymond Culpepper delivered the message, preaching through the first six chapters of the Old Testament book of Daniel. It was a great message about the Church's response to a world in crisis. It was also good to see many old friends.

Following the service I drove back to Tennessee, only to return to the Nashville area on Friday for a two-day state library leadership meeting at Montgomery Bell State Park in Burns, TN. The meeting schedule was intense, but I found time to relax in the beauty of the park. My hotel room had a breath-taking view. I also toured the site where the Cumberland Presbyterian Church began, which is located within the state park. I enjoyed learning more about the history of the Cumberland Presbyterian Church as a result.

So, I have been on the road a great deal. I hope to return to Hanceville, Alabama, at some point in the future. It is a very spiritual place.

Historical Society of Church of God Movements

2008-05-30T09:38:00.014-04:00

Yesterday (May 29, 2008) was the Seventh Annual Meeting for the Historical Society of Church of God Movements. We met at the Museum Center at Five Points in Cleveland, TN. There were 20 individuals present, representing five denominations, four archival repositories, a university, a community historical society, and several local churches. The theme for this year’s meeting was “The Development of Early Church of God Ecclesiology” and focused on the leadership roles of R.G. Spurling, founder, and A.J. Tomlinson, first general overseer.

Reverend Michael Padgett, the Society president and pastor of a Church of God Mountain Assembly congregation in Kentucky, moderated the meeting. Dr. Harold Hunter, (Ph.D., Fuller Theological Seminary) and director of the International Pentecostal Holiness Church Archives and Research Center in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma, presented a paper in response to a paper written by Dr. Dale Coulter, (DPhil, Oxford University) and associate professor of historical theology at Regent University in Virginia Beach, Virginia. Dr. Coulter’s paper, “The Development of Ecclesiology in the Church of God (Cleveland, TN): A Forgotten Contribution?”, was published in Pneuma: Journal for the Society of Pentecostal Studies (29.1, 2007, p. 59-85).

Participants in this year’s annual meeting represented the Church of God (Cleveland), the Church of God of Prophecy, the Church of God Mountain Assembly, Zion Assembly Church of God, and the United Methodist Church. The historian for Cleveland/Bradley County, Tennessee, and Bible professors at Lee University were present as well.

[above images include (top to bottom): (1) some of the participants in the 2008 meeting, (2) Michael Padgett, Society president 2006-08, (3) Harold Hunter, and (4) Dale Coulter]

I have served as the executive secretary and treasurer for the Society since its organization in May 2002. Yesterday, I completed the time limit for that position according to the Society by-laws, and, subsequently, I was elected to serve a two-year term as second vice president.

New officers for the Society include (L-R):
Executive Secretary and Treasurer – Marie Spurling Crook (Zion Assembly COG)
President – Adrian Varlack, Sr. (COGOP)
First Vice President – Jerald Daffe (COG)
Second Vice President – Louis Morgan (COG)

The Society's mission and purpose are "to promote the study, interpretation and interpretation of the history and heritage of Church of God movements in their variety of expressions. It shall also seek to produce, and encourage the production of historical materials (written, audio-visual, Internet), to encourage the preservation of documents, records and photographs related to the movements, and to promote occasions for the movements to remember, appreciate and celebrate their history and heritage."

"Membership in the Historical Society of Church of God Movements is open to all persons who wish to learn more about the history and heritage of the movements, contribute to our historical understanding, or support the work of the Society."

The Society meets each year on the first Thursday after Memorial Day. The location for next year’s meeting will be announced soon.

The Need for Spiritual Mentors

2008-05-23T12:17:00.008-04:00

(This topic reflects a need for mentors within the denomination of which I am a member, but I am certain it is applicable to other denominations as well. The pics are of my two mentors, Corne Bekker and Lee Grady.)

This weekend I was able to spend some time with one of my two mentors. I’m planning to spend some time with the other one in mid-July. Usually, we communicate weekly by email or phone, and that is important to me. But there is something about being in their presence and that type of interaction that energizes me to fulfill the mission to which God has called me.

Neither of my mentors are Church of God (the denomination of which I am a member and minister), but they are both individuals who have connected with me and even consider me part of their family. They both come from a Pentecostal/Charismatic background, but one is more contemplative and the other is more experiential. It provides a perfect balance for me—and one that challenges me. Sometimes they offer correction, and sometimes they affirm me in the midst of my own doubts. It is such a healthy experience for me. And, I am able to provide friendship, encouragement, and even question why they view some things as they do. I submit myself to their spiritual authority and wisdom, but it is not out of fear. Instead, I see the way they live—their actions reveal Christ and a deep, genuine spirituality—and I know they are not trying to manipulate me through their mentoring. And, there are times when I realize they even learn something from me (although I learn much more from them, I’m certain).

Reading a Church of God (COG) discussion board today, I was reminded of conversations I have with many young ministers and emerging ministers in the COG (like me). Time after time I hear individuals talk about their desire for spiritual mothers and fathers. This has been one of my own concerns. There is a real need in our church (and has been for quite some time) for such mentors—not just “yes” men and women who say what we want to hear, but individuals who will be honest with us about their own struggles and help us see the proper way to deal with situations. And, individuals who are not trying to change us into what they think we should be, but are willing to walk with us as we develop into the person God wants us to be.

Why do we not have more of this in the COG? Surely there are numerous individuals who are capable to provide this role. I know the covenant groups have helped, but not everyone feels comfortable in such a setting. Sometimes it requires the one-on-one interaction between seasoned individuals and those beginning the journey. I also realize our structure cultivates unhealthy competition among ministers, and this may have something to do with the distrust for this type of relationship. (There are “toxic” mentors who are only interested in manipulation, control, and getting ahead of another—even at the cost of disclosing confidential information). I also know we are busy because of the many demands of ministry, but there must be some way to foster a culture within our movement that allows for effective mentoring.

And, I know some people cannot see beyond their own way of doing things. For instance, some younger people feel older people are “out-of-touch” and have nothing to offer them. Likewise, some older people perceive younger people as too “liberal” (for a lack of a better word). No, age does not mean someone must be boxed in to this stereotype, but we do tend to stereotype people according to age. And, I believe different generations tend to have different value sets (although there are exceptions). I believe this is some of our tension in the COG now—the mantle of leadership is moving from one value-set to another. This is why it is vital for our next group of leaders to be able to bridge the cultures, generations, and perceptions of what constitutes “ministry”. Otherwise, we are going to isolate a portion of our constituency (and all are important).

So, I propose an individual submitting to a mentor must be willing to:
1 – be real/vulnerable/transparent
2 – be teachable and able to receive correction
3 – disagree “agreeably” at times
4 – look beyond our own preferences to focus on what is most important
(I’m sure there are many others; feel free to add to the list)

I know the importance of having an effective mentor-relationship, and I wish that for everyone—especially those serving in helping roles, such as pastors.

Focusing on Christ's Model of Leadership

2008-05-22T22:47:00.006-04:00

Last weekend I enjoyed visiting with friends, professors, and classmates at Regent University in Virginia Beach, Virginia. I attended the 2008 Annual Roundtables of Contemporary Research and Practice. The keynote speaker was Dr. Mansour Javidan, the President and Chairman of the Board of Directors for the GLOBE project. (I encourage you to check out this fascinating research).

In addition, I participated in the Biblical Perspectives in Leadership Roundtable, where I presented two papers: “Beyond Serving Others: Continual Self-Sacrifice as Normative Christianity” and “The Admonitions of St. Francis: Implications for Servant and Transformational Leaders”. (The research and writing process for these two papers helped transform me tremendously). I really enjoyed listening to other researchers present their work as well. It was a great time of sharing and learning from one another. The chair and moderator for this roundtable, Dr. Corne Bekker, is my professor (and also a mentor to me). He is also one of my favorite people—no kidding!!—and I always learn so much listening to him. (Check out his blog at http://innerresourcesforleaders.blogspot.com/ ).

It was nice to hang out with Catherine, a classmate I’ve adopted as a “big sister”. We went to the beach on Sunday afternoon, but, unfortunately, it was a short trip after sand blew into my eye. Ouch!! I don’t know what I would have done if Catherine had not been there to help me wash the sand out. (Thanks!)

I also enjoyed visiting with a wonderful family there that made me feel like a member of their family. Let me just say… I have discovered I am a great target in a water-gun fight!

I left Monday morning, and it took me 16 hours (instead of the normal 10) to get back home. I love driving on back roads, and I also stopped at way too many historic sites. But, it was a wonderful weekend—one that reminded me the Lord is so wonderful and that I am extremely blessed.

And, I even met a couple of individuals who read this blog regularly, and I never would have guessed it. (You know who you are!!!) *smile*

The Finished Lawn Project

2008-04-30T12:03:00.022-04:00

After three weekends of working in my lawn, I have finished the project (as much as any lawn project can be completed-- there is always something to be done).

I love working in my yard, and I am really pleased with the outcome. I purchased my home one year and one month ago. Last Spring and Summer I focused on painting the inside (all but the trim is completed). During the Fall I focused on having someone paint the outside trim and make shutters for the front of the house. This Spring I have focused on landscaping. Next year I will focus on re-seeding the grass.

My neighbors are really pleased with the results of the lawn work as well-- complete with a bird bath and a small statue of St. Francis of Assisi (one of my favorite leaders to study and research).

Here is a pic of the house when I purchased it.

Here is a pic of the house as of this morning.

I also have roses blooming all over the lawn-- red, pink, yellow, and mixed colors. I've planted most of the rose bushes and one rose tree. However, there is a rose bush on the corner of the house that was planted by a previous owner, Reverend Pauline and Roy Lambert (see last pic).

This rose bush on the corner of the house was planted by Reverend Pauline Lambert and her husband, Roy. They lived in the house for several years. I never knew Mr. Lambert, but I referred to Mrs. Lambert as "Grandma Lambert". When I was a Lee student, she often invited me to her home for dinner. After her passing, the house went through a few more residents until I purchased it last year. My house is located just a few blocks from the university campus where I work, and it is in the historic district. So, I am really thankful for the blessing of this house. It is my first home-purchase and a great welcome after renting an apartment for eight years (and dorm living before that).

BTW, this rose bush is FULL of rosebuds. In less than a week it should be popping with beautiful red roses. Last year it did not bloom very much, but I pruned it and gave it special attention this year. I'm amazed at the number of buds-- more than 50-- about ready to bloom on this one rose bush alone.

I guess this proves I belong in my family... most of my relatives have always spent many hours planting flowers, shrubs, and trees. My mother, aunt, and grandmother have some amazingly beautiful lawns. My grandfather and great-grandfather have always been successful at growing roses. So, when I'm working in my yard I feel connected with my family in some unique way. Yard work is also very spiritual to me; I am usually praying or thinking about God while working in the lawn.

Landscaping Project

2008-04-21T12:23:00.006-04:00

(This is really posted so my Mother can see pics of my yard. It proves that I am her son. *smile*)

For the last two weekends, I have spent most of Saturday and Sunday working in my yard. I love being outdoors, and I understand fully how individuals relate to the spiritual aspect of yard work. Within two weeks, I have created a new corner flower garden and also replanted two beds next to my house-- complete with reframing their borders. I have to admit (which is probably evident), I am not an expert at lawn care but I love digging in the dirt. Since purchasing the home last year, I have had the outside trim painted and added handmade shutters to the front of the house. I had a large pine tree cut down and planted two dogwoods in its place, as well as adding six rose bushes along the fencerow and a rose tree in the front yard (near the new flower garden). There is still more to do as I can find the time and money, but I think the house looks much better. In addition, this weekend I planted new shrubs along the house-- including camelias and rhododendron. I still need to put more mulch and a bird bath in the new flower garden, as well put more soil in the flower beds near the house and cover them with mulch. I hope to finish that this week.

In the meantime, I need to mow my lawn. :-)

The flower bed begins... Weekend 1

After Weekend 2

The house when I purchased it in Feb 2007

Wow! What a Week!

2008-04-10T19:03:00.010-04:00

This has been a tremendously busy week for me. I'm attending the annual conference of the Tennessee Library Association, which is being held in Kingsport, TN, at the MeadowView Conference Resort and Convention Center. (I am most impressed with this conference facility, and I have found some amazing restaurants nearby).

It has been a fast-pace schedule since my arrival in Kingsport. The preconference session included an inspiring presentation by Masha Hamilton, author of The Camel Bookmobile. I enjoyed meeting Masha and discussing a possible project I was inspired to do while listening to her speak. She is a super friendly person. And, I also enjoyed meeting and listening to Nancy Pearl, of the noted Book Lust fame. Then, following the all-day session, I attended my usual quarterly meeting of the TLA Board of Directors, which lasted until 8 PM.

However, today has been the highlight for me-- both exciting and exhausting. Firstly, I attended the 7 AM Intellectual Freedom Breakfast, where I was awarded the 2007 James E. Ward Library Instruction Award. This award is selected annually from all librarians in Tennessee (academic, public, school, or special collections) who provide instruction to students and patrons. I am very grateful for this honor and recognition from my professional peers. I seek to be diligent and devoted in my library service at Lee University, and I feel very blessed to be the recipient of this award.

In addition, TLA Board of Directors appointments for the coming year were announced. I will continue to serve on the TLA Board of Directors next year (as a member of the 2009 Conference Planning Committee and remaining in my current position as co-chair of the Publications Advisory Board that oversees the professional publication Tennessee Libraries and the TLA Newsletter). I was also nominated and elected to serve as the 2008-09 Vice Chair/Chair-elect of the Tennessee Library Instruction Roundtable. (This is great incentive to complete my dissertation soon!)

Following my return to Cleveland tomorrow evening after the conference, my focus for the next month will be (1) helping students select their Fall courses at Lee, (2) working on my dissertation, and (3) preparing to present two papers at the Biblical Perspectives in Leadership Research Roundtable in May. (I am especially grateful for the mention of my participation in the Leadership Research Roundtable on the blog my professor Dr. Corne Bekker).

Okay, I guess this explains why I have been absent from the blog world for a few days. *smile* But wow! What an amazing week!

Louis Has Not Left The Building

2008-04-08T23:24:00.002-04:00

I know I haven't blogged much the last few weeks... either here or posting comments on other blogs. I haven't left... just super busy focusing on my dissertation and preparing for a conference, which I am attending at the moment.

I still check out my usual list of blogs, but I've been limited on time to post a comment. I have to say that I am missing the interaction with all my blog buddies. There are some really great discussions taking place in the blogosphere right now. I'll catch up soon.

Your gifts will make room for you

2008-03-27T23:59:00.003-04:00

Today my mentor shared these words with me, and I was reminded of a former pastor who often spoke these words into my life. After letting my mentor know about a recent decision, he gave me some helpful advice and then shared that gifts God has given me will make room for me in the areas where He has called me to minister. (Sometimes we just need the reminder!)

Those close to me know the frustration I’ve experienced in recent years concerning whether to surrender my ministerial license with the Church of God or to begin the process of advancing to the next ministerial rank. This has been a 2- to 3-year process of searching within myself, in the Word, in counsel with those over me in the Lord, with peers, and in prayer. Most days, it has been a painful process, but finally I have made my decision.

Here's what I feel led to do... continue my ministry at the university where I serve but also teach some leadership courses. And, during my month off I would like to take short-term missions trips to places that are often forgotten. There I want to provide pastors and church leaders with basic leadership tools and then roll up my sleeves and work with them in the community. I just want to help them see leadership from a proper perspective as a follower of Christ-- that has as much to do with "being" as "doing". I believe others who have used these same tools have provided a wealth of data showing its effectiveness. I just want to connect people with resources. And, I want to bridge divisions-- age, worship styles, gender, etc. I am very focused on having an intergenerational ministry. Jesus loves both the old and the young, and we have a responsibility to find a way to blend the two together.

But there have been some things hindering me in making a decision about which organization is best suited for my ministerial role, whether my denomination or an independent ministry network.

Firstly, I feel isolated by the lack of spiritual mentors in the Church of God. I feel we have created a system of competition among ministers. Instead of viewing our ministries as parts connected together, it seems that many individuals become too focused only in their specific ministry and fail to see the relevancy of other ministries. Yes, this is human tendency. However, this is not scriptural. Rather than accept it, I feel we must find ways to counter-act this tendency and provide appropriate alternatives. I do not have the answers to this dilemma, but I know that many ministers feel isolated by the lack of spiritual mothers/fathers and peers who are willing to work together sincerely without agendas to manipulate, gain control, or compete. According to the Word, we are co-laborers together with Christ and each of us is necessary to the Body. (Thankfully, I have found two spiritual mentors outside of the Church of God who provide me with a balance in perspectives. But I still need relationships within the Church of God.)

Secondly, other than organizational politics that exist in all denominations, my greatest dissatisfaction is that my ministerial role seems irrelevant to my church leaders and peers. Although it has never been stated, it has been implied. Primarily, my ministerial role is that of an educator. I’ve heard individuals in various settings (preaching, lecturing, casual conversation, etc.) make comments suggesting only pastors or missionaries really understand ministry. I disagree.

I am called of God to preach, teach, publish, and defend the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I do this in various ways, but mainly through my work at an institution of Christian higher education. There are parts of traditional ministry that I love, and there are parts of the new ways of doing ministry that I love. There are also parts of each that I do not like. I can worship in either setting, but I do not feel like I belong completely in either setting. To me, the focus should be on Christ. I can worship Him in any setting. More than anything else, however, I am relational. My style is much more reflective of a teacher, and I prefer one-on-one mentoring to pastoring a large congregation. Unfortunately, there is little emphasis within the Church of God that affirms the ministry of non-pastors. And, I am unaware of any recent conference focusing on equipping the ministry role of educators in the Church of God.

Even though I am not a pastor, I have no doubt the Lord has used me as a vessel to minister to others since I was filled with the Holy Spirit at the age of 9. At that time, I was consumed with a desire to work in the local church and minister to others. I have taught children, youth, adults, created effective discipleship programs, assisted churches, preached messages in numerous churches, and worked with senior adults. In my service as a youth and children’s pastor the congregation experienced dynamic growth (numerical and spiritually) among the youth and children. And, my work at the university involves teaching, advising, and mentoring students.

Needless to say, my ministerial roles have been diverse. However, to me it is about people. I love people, and I desire to help people find a relationship with Christ. Even more, I desire to maintain relationships with people and help them in their continued discipleship process. And, I served in each of the local church roles without receiving any payment. In fact, it cost me money. Yet, money was not the issue. I was compelled to do these things. They were a natural outflow of what God placed in me for those areas of ministry. I filled a need, and God gave the increase. However, because I am not a pastor, I have often felt some pastors and church leaders think I am unable to understand ministry. (If pastors only knew the amount of trouble-shooting I did for the pastors in the local church where I served!!!) Nonetheless, this mentality has become increasingly evident to me in the last 3 years.

Finally, I have vented numerous times to my friends concerning the perception of single ministers. Certainly there are cases where singles ministers are guilty of misconduct. However, I would argue that sin is a heart issue, not a state of marriage or singleness. Married individuals have the same capability for misconduct as single individuals. However, here are some things I’ve been told in the Church of God concerning my singleness: (1) I am out of the purpose and will of God for my life because I am single and not having children, (2) My singleness sounds like a generational curse, and (3) two state administrative bishops—although not the ones to whom I report—have told me that I need not expect to have a recognized ministry in the Church of God unless I am married, whether or not this mentality it is correct or biblical. (What about logical?) So, my choice to remain single at this stage in my life seems to distance me from the broader ministerial opportunities in the Church of God, especially serving as a youth pastor or on a local church pastoral staff.

Yet, through all of this, I still love the denomination that has nurtured me and taught me the scriptures. It has been my family's church since 1909 and for six generations. It is my heritage. However, I am the last person of my generation in my family line that is still in the Church of God. I've questioned, too, whether or not I have a future in it. I’ve spent much time processing through this issue. It was after Palm Sunday that I finally felt peace regarding my decision.

I have decided that I am going to keep my ministerial license in the Church of God. I still may find a ministry fellowship for support and interaction, but I will maintain my Church of God license. However, even though I believe in the local church and will attend one, I am not going to focus on trying to find a place of service there. I have a different ministry role-- one that may not be understood, affirmed, or embraced by much of the church or by many pastors. However, this is where God has placed me. I am in the academic setting, which I love. I have the opportunity to minister to so many students-- to help mentor them and create an environment where they can see and experience their faith in fresh ways. To me, the academic institution is just as relevant as the local church in the discipleship process. And, being relational is the way it happens here-- engaging in discussion and learning from one another. In truth, Jesus was a teacher.

I submitted to the Lord that if He opens the door and gives me clear direction, I will go through them. And it no longer matters that other ministers to do not view my role as ministry. (Please know there are some that do). Don't get me wrong, I believe in the local church and I believe it is vital. I also want to honor pastors and support them in their efforts. But I guess I've just wanted acknowledgment of my own validity as a minister. In the end, that will come from God. After making this decision, it was amazing what happened 3 days later… I received an offer to teach a leadership course and an invitation for a short-term training opportunity in a local church overseas.

So, I will leave the power struggles to others. I will just roll up my sleeves and do the work of ministry in the place God has entrusted to me-- as a single educator in need of spiritual fathering. (Yet, I am reminded that God is our Father). I believe I've seen this week that He will open doors for me. I believe I can now see why God has ordered my steps to where I am at today. I really have peace about my future ministry. I am willing to minister in any place the door opens. If they are cool with my Church of God license, then I am cool with them. I think I've finally shifted my focus from serving the denomination to serving Christ. The denomination and I will have a mutually beneficial relationship-- and that is wonderful!-- but I am serving Christ wherever He opens the way. My peers did not call me, the church did not call me... the Lord did.

And, the Lord empowers me with the tools/gifts to do the work to which He has called me. And, these gifts will make room for me in these areas of ministry.

Charles W. Conn: 'His Mission Accomplished!'

2008-03-19T19:24:00.015-04:00

Last evening, an individual who has invested in my life and influenced me, and for whom I have had much respect, passed away. Dr. Charles William Conn, president emeritus of Lee University (1999-2008) and former presiding bishop of the Church of God (1966-70) and former Lee University president (1970-82), passed away Tuesday evening, March 18th after suffering a heart attack 4 days earlier. He was longtime Church Historian for the Church of God (1977-2004) and author of the denomination's official history, Like A Mighty Army. He also served as editor-in-chief of Church of God publications for ten years and authored more than two dozen books. In addition, he served in numerous interdenominational positions (including Presidium of the Pentecostal World Fellowship, 1966-70; Executive Committee of the Pentecostal Fellowship of North America--now the Pentecostal-Charismatic Churches of North America, 1962-70; and on the Board of Directors for the National Association of Evangelicals, 1966-70).

Dr. Conn was born January 20, 1920, to Albert and Belle Conn in Riverside, Georgia, a suburb community of Atlanta. He accepted Christ in 1939, was first licensed with the Church of God in 1940, and was ordained as a bishop in 1946. In April 1941, he married Edna Minor, whom he met when they were students at the Church of God Bible Training School, now Lee University. To this union 12 children were born, including Dr. Paul Conn, current president of Lee University since 1986.

During Dr. Charles Conn's administrative leadership of the Church of God, the denomination experienced significant membership gains and progressed spiritually and physically. He emphasized spiritual renewal and the creation of a general program of education to advance sound ministerial preparation, including the projection of a seminary, which was established in 1975. Conn helped foster within the Church of God an acceptance of educational pursuits and an acceptance of broader Christianity. He also emphasized the internationalization of the Church of God and visited each major area of the denomination during his service as its presiding bishop. His ministry was characterized by his vision, integrity, and ability to connect with Church of God membership at the grassroots level.

Because of his positive impact on the church and community, Dr. Conn has received numerous honors, including having the main auditorium at Lee University named for him. This is where students attend weekly chapel services and the university hosts musical and other performing arts events for the local community. In addition, he was honored by the denomination in 2002 with the inception of the Charles W. Conn Historical Writing Award, which biennially recognizes authors of outstanding books and articles related to the history and heritage of the Church of God. At that time, the denomination noted that "Charles W. Conn has symbolized the best of historical and literary writing in the Church of God for over 50 years.... [His] writings are the standard by which future historical writings will be judged." In 2003 Lee University established the Charles W. Conn Servant Leadership Scholarship to emphasize the importance of serving others and recognize students who demonstrate an outstanding commitment to service during their time at Lee. In addition, students who receive this scholarship give a portion of the proceeds to a charity of their choice. Each of these honors reflects the life and ministry of Dr. Conn and help continue his legacy among a new generation.

In addition to his denominational work, Dr. Conn was also a poet, photographer, and deeply devoted to his wife and family. He also had an enduring love of literature, history, world travel, and classical music. But foremost, the passion of his life was his love for his wife, Edna, who passed away in September 1997. In 1995 he penned the following words in his preface for a revision of Like A Mighty Army: "I hereby express publicly what I have expressed privately many times-- my muse in life and labor is my dear wife, Edna. With her understanding and support, what might seem strenuous toil becomes rewarding creation."

On a personal note, I am thankful for having met him and being both inspired and influenced by him. I especially appreciate the time he spent telling me stories when he would visit the library and Research Center where I work. One of my highlights of my time working in the Research Center was to help create an exhibit honoring his life and ministry. He will always be one of my heroes.

My thoughts and prayers are with the Conn family at the home-going of a great man whom they loved dearly and shared gladly with so many others throughout the world.

Thank You, Lord, for loaning to this world such a man as Charles Conn. May You raise up more like followers of The Way to help us fulfill Your mission!

'Lessons of St. Francis' Retreat

2008-03-18T22:10:00.004-04:00

Today I registered for a retreat, and I am very excited about it. This summer I will spend a few days at a retreat center in the Ozark Mountains of Arkansas. The retreat focuses on the lessons of St. Francis, and it is sponsored by the Brothers and Sisters of Charity at Little Portion Hermitage. John Michael Talbot will lead the sessions, which will focus on practical reflections of simplicity, humility, compassion, creativity, community, solitude, service and prayer as seen through the writings of St. Francis, his followers and biographers.

Last summer I spent 3 weeks in Italy and Switzerland. Ten days of that trip were spent studying St. Paul in Rome and St. Francis in Assisi. One of the most spiritual experiences I've ever had in my life occurred in Assisi when I spent an hour in solitude and reflection on the mountain near the location where St. Francis often prayed. I am looking forward to my spiritual retreat this summer.

New Blog -- On Mission Monday

2008-03-16T15:06:00.004-04:00

I will unveil a new blog tomorrow, March 17th. This has been a personal goal for this year. My initial desire is to communicate with my family and friends in Mississippi and replace the printed mailout I did several years ago. However, I hope the audience increases to others as well. I'm praying that individuals who need to read the new posting each week will find it and be encouraged. It is for an ecumenical and intergenerational audience.

You can check out the initial post tomorrow at: http://www.onmissionmonday.blogspot.com

Keepin’ it Real

2008-03-13T17:45:00.004-04:00

Today I taught the Pentecostal history class again, filling in for the regular professor who is out-of-town. I really enjoyed my time with these students this week. Before each class I’ve spent some time learning about them, where they are from, and about their personal testimonies of faith. Today they asked about my educational studies and what I would like to see happen in my life after I’ve completed my degree program. I was transparent with them concerning where I am at in my spiritual journey. It was a great time of sharing, and it helps me know I am not alone in my spiritual quest to hear others say, “I know just how you feel, because that is where I’m at in my own life.”

I told the students that I desire to serve the university where I am now employed. I hope that some additional teaching opportunities will become available for me. And, on my month off in the summer, I hope to make some short-term missions trips overseas—mainly to places that need affirmation and training, but are often overlooked. There, I would like to provide some basic leadership training for pastors and other church leaders (including laity). I would like to provide them with tools they can use in their personal development as leaders. And, while there, I want to “roll up my sleeves” and work with them in their local communities. This is my passion. Now I’m just looking for a way to make this happen. I don’t know if it can happen within my own denomination. I hope so, but I am uncertain. If not, I trust that God will open the doors through some other ministry group.

Okay, back to the class… Today we watched a video about Pentecostal religion in Appalachia. (And, no, it was not the serpent handlers). Many aspects of the film are comical to most of us, but there is one thing that stands out to me… most individuals in this video appear sincere. They are keeping it real. I might not like their style or even feel comfortable with some of their worship practices, but in listening to their personal testimonies I sense they really love the Lord and want to serve Him. The individuals captured in the video didn’t have the luxury of being in the finest churches or even have much money. But they were busy trying to share the Good News of Jesus with others. I was inspired.

At the close of the class, I shared my own reflections after watching the film. I said, “Everyone needs Jesus—even the people in rural Appalachia who have remained in towns many were forced to abandon in order to find work. It isn’t about having the largest church or a church with the highest salary; it is about being faithful to what God has called us to do and with the opportunities He has provided us. And, everyone needs Jesus. But how will they accept Him unless they hear about Him? And how will they hear about Him unless someone takes the Gospel to them? And we are all called to minister and share the Good News with those around us. Some of us will do this as pastors; some will be evangelists and missionaries. Some will do this as educators. Some will do this through the marketplace, and some will create innovative ways to share the message. Everyone needs Jesus… who are we helping to find Him? And, are we doing it for our own personal gain, ego, and fame, or are we doing it out of a sincere desire to be the hands and feet of Jesus to those around us right here in the 21st Century?”

I left class knowing I had connected with the students this week. I believe some of them will become friends, and I hope to have the opportunity to walk with them in their own spiritual development. It is days like this where I feel most alive and on mission. I’m thankful I’ve learned to keep it real and be true to who and what I feel God has called me to be and do. It isn’t always easy, because I do not feel many in my denomination understand my ministry, but I know God does… and, in the end, being faithful and true to Him and in the ministry to which He has called me are all that matters.

What a wonderful day!

2008-03-11T21:38:00.002-04:00

What an interesting day! My responsibilities required many roles today, including being a conflict manager, strategist, teacher, and even some mentoring along the way.

Since August, I’ve taken on additional duties at work in which I am directly responsible for employees in four departments. Plus, I still continue my teaching and coordination of the library instruction sessions, which number more than 50 (and 1000 students) each semester. Most days are filled with meetings, teaching, and problem solving; some days are more intense than others. Information and information agencies are no different than the rest of the world—in a state of flux and transformation. Higher education is transitioning as well.

Needless to say, each day brings new challenges and issues. I spent over half of the day working through issues related to glitches in technology, which frustrated employees and required us to think of alternative ways of providing service temporarily. Such frustration sometimes creates “silent tension”, where employees need to vent but do not wish to complain publicly. I have an open-door policy, and today it was certainly utilized. One-by-one employees spent some time discussing how the technological problems were hindering their work progress. So, I listened and then began to ask questions to help my co-workers think through the work process. We began to solve the current problem. And, before it was over, we actually created some long-term plans to increase our service to students and make our work process more creative and efficient. It was rewarding to solve problems in a way that made everyone happy.

I also taught a library instruction session, and I worked on completing some tasks for a professional association where I serve. It was one of those non-stop days.

However, the highlight of my day was filling in for a professor who is out-of-town for a conference. It was for a class on the history of Pentecostalism, and I taught about Black Pentecostalism and race relations in the movement during the last century. The students were from various Christian backgrounds, and they were very engaging. We even managed to laugh as we entered into some deep discussion concerning the evolution of doctrinal and worship practices and denominational development among Pentecostals. In my teaching, I try to mix the lecture with opportunities for student interaction and feedback. Today, I believe students found the class interesting, and I left feeling energized. We connected, and we discussed some really important issues that are applicable to Bible doctrine and local church ministry today as well.

After returning to the office, I had about 30 minutes left, which I spent conversing with a student. I always enjoyed getting to share with students—as well as listening to them and learning from their perspective. After work I made the short drive (less than 10 blocks) home and started reading articles for my dissertation. Tomorrow is set to be another non-stop day, but it is all good! I enjoy what I do—I feel like I’m impacting lives, and I believe it is for a purpose much larger than myself.

In recent months my thoughts concerning my calling and whether to keep my ministerial credentials has intensified. I love the denomination with which I am affiliated, but I increasingly feel like I do not belong in it. Even when I fellowship with ministers my age, I feel I do not have much in common with them. And, part of this is because the denomination does not know how to resource ministers who are not pastors.

Yet, today I thought: Perhaps this is meant to focus my efforts in academia and other educational/training activities. Perhaps my desire to provide short-term training opportunities for overseas pastors and churches is built into this. Perhaps this is the avenue where I am best able to provide tools and resources for others so they can use them to become better leaders. Maybe my discontent and discomfort with much that takes place in local church settings is simply the clear direction I’ve been seeking, pointing me toward the academy.

Because I am a follower of Christ, I am part of the Church. I also believe that I have been called to minister to others and help equip others for ministry. I am learning more about the congruence between my calling and vocation, serving God where I am. Perhaps, just maybe, my “church” is the academic institutions where I minister on a daily basis. More on this later…

Not a Typical Saturday Evening

2008-03-08T21:08:00.004-05:00

A typical Saturday evening for me includes a nice meal and either a good movie or book. It is usually a restful, quiet evening. But, tonight is not the case. Don't get me wrong... I am enjoying my evening, just sitting here thinking how very different it is.

My good friends have three sons, ages 8, 6, and 4. Tonight they are all staying with "Uncle Louis". We started off with a visit to Dollar General, where I let them buy one toy each. (That was an experience in itself). They all chose radios with headsets. However, they all prefer to listen to their radios, each on a different station, full blast without the headset. Right now we have a Gospel station, a sports station, and a rock station playing simultaneously. They enjoyed helping me bake cookies, which we then ate with ice cream. (They had already had dinner when I picked them up). One is now playing a car race video game on the TV, while the other two are enjoying playing in a "fort" I built for them next to the couch. I always enjoy when the boys stay with me, but it sure makes me realize how quiet my life is normally. However, they are great boys and say "thank you" and mind me well. Tonight one of them told me, "You are the only grown up that ever plays with us." (They just don't know it is because I'm still a kid at heart-- and all of my adult relatives always played with me when I was a kid. At least it will be good memories for them. Of course, I probably am the only adult that continuously picks up after them too.)

I will call it a great evening as long as we can stay out of the emergency room.

(This pic is of the boys and me just before Christmas).

My Hero -- My Grandfather

2008-03-03T22:51:00.004-05:00

If you frequent my blog, you know that my family means a great deal to me. I am blessed to have been born into a small community with a large, loving family. One of my heroes is my paternal grandfather, Feldon "Bud" Morgan. On February 26th, he turned 85 years of age. I wanted to do something special for him this year and enlisted other family members to help me organize a birthday celebration for him. It was held Saturday, March 1st at the Morgantown Church of God Family Life Center in my hometown of Morgantown, MS. This is next door to the home where my grandfather spent his childhood and youth. It is across the highway from the small, country store where he spent his career as store owner and local postmaster (the post office was inside the store) after he returned from serving in World War 2.

My g'pa spent his life helping others in the local community. Many individuals comment how their family would have been hungry had he not given them food from his store. He is a person of few words, but his life speaks volume. He is patient, tender, meek, and honest. He is a good man whose life epitomizes the scripture that explains a good name is more desirable than great wealth.

More than 100 individuals gathered to help my g'pa celebrate his birthday, and it was an amazing day. I'm so thankful for still having my g'pa with us and for his life and example that makes me want to be a better man. Happy 85th birthday, Papaw!

Bud as a baby in 1923

Bud in the Navy, 1943
aboard the USS New Mexico

Bud married Kathleen Pittman in 1947

Bud with me in the late 1970s

Inspired to Simplicity and Service

2008-02-15T23:23:00.008-05:00

How is it that someone I've never met has such a positive impact on my life? It seems strange to me, but it is true nonetheless. My great-great grandmother passed away in 1959-- many years before I was born. Yet, even today she is someone who provides guidance for my life. Her name was Clara Allison Priest, and she was an evangelist, church planter, and pastor. She began preaching in 1909 following a dynamic spiritual experience in her life. A few years later her first husband died, leaving her with five daughters and no money. She supported her family by working in fields picking cotton, and she even lived for a time in a barn-style building with dirt flooring. Yet, she continued her ministry of sharing the love of God with others. For 50 years, she had an active pulpit ministry and served others in the local communities where she lived.

The other night I was spending some time in reflection and prayer, and I became consumed with thoughts about my great-great grandmother. I decided to locate a few brittle pages, yellowed with age, that contain her life story. She penned her testimony a few months prior to her death, and her words have served as inspiration for many of her descendants, including me. Reading through her testimony, I was amazed at the times the family had no food. Yet, after prayer, the Lord provided. Time and time again she told of how God brought healing and other provision to the family when they had no where else to turn.

Today, it seems many followers of Christ focus on building mega-ministries and having large congregations. Yet, that was not the case with the matriarch of my family. She and her second husband (who was my step great-great grandfather and also a minister) never pastored large congregations. However, I continually meet individuals who knew them and speak of them with much affection. Their ministry was simple-- love others and be a light of hope in a dark place. Such simplicity attracted individuals sincere in their search for God, and it provided them with opportunities to help develop and mentor young ministers as well. But mostly, they cared for the homeless and fed the hungry regularly, even when they had little to share themselves. In many communities where they lived, if police officers found someone passing through the town and needing a place to stay, they were taken to my great-great grandparents' home. They had an abundance of love for people, and, because they really cared for others, they made many friends.

I'm encouraged by their example. They loved others not expecting anything in return. Most of the individuals who benefited from their generosity were in no position to repay them. Yet, my ancestors believed the biblical passage that explains when we do something for the least among us, it is the same as if we are performing that action for Christ.

That is the type of Christ-follower to which I aspire. I want to serve Christ by serving others, without expecting anything in return. I want to show love to all people and be the "hands and feet" of Jesus in meeting their needs.

So tonight, I'm again reminded of the importance of being devoted to Christ and faithful in living out His mission. It is not in the things that will cause others to notice my ability or even follow after me for a charismatic personality. No, it is simply in sharing Christ's love and light with others. Everything else will fade away, but actions performed because of pure love with last forever-- in memories and in the actions of others who have been inspired to do the same. Do you want to make a mark on this world? Don't focus on drawing big crowds or making a name for yourself; focus on love. Love will last much longer.

Thank you, Mama Priest, for teaching me valuable lessons on how to live and serve-- lessons that have endured long after your time here on earth. See you soon!

Lunch with Leonard Sweet

2008-02-01T18:33:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was awesome! I drove to Highpoint Community Church near Atlanta (actually in Snellville) for a lunch meeting with Leonard Sweet. My friend, Phil Underwood, is friends with Len. After learning that Len was going to be in the area, Phil set up a special lunch meeting and invited about 20 area ministerial leaders (including women and men who are Methodists, Lutherans, Pentecostals, Christian Church adherents, Baptists, Non-denoms, and Willow Creekers). Of course it was about a 150-mile drive for me... but how could I resist getting to have lunch with Len Sweet? (Thanks again, Phil!)

Having had time to rest and reflect on yesterday's lunch meeting, I am so grateful for the experience. Here are some thoughts I have as a result of the discussion:

Respect for Spiritual Foundation

I really appreciate Len's comments about the importance for us to understand our spiritual heritage (especially the spiritual fathers and other noted theologians throughout history) as a place from which we move forward and find a way to be effective in reaching others today. I believe some individuals think that a new way of understanding Church and what it means to be a follower of Christ makes anything prior to this moment unimportant. I am happy to say that is not the case. I believe there is a very deep appreciation for the foundational truths of what it means to be a Christ-follower. In fact, I believe most of this current spiritual quest is focused on that idea-- and how to find the freedom to live out these truths without the unnecessary burdens that we tend to demand in our effort to "understand" or "explain" it. At least for me, I am drawn to this way of thinking because I believe it focuses on the basics of the faith without the burden of institutionalism-- and the other "isms". Len said it best when saying that some of the most "relevant" things are not "recent". I also like his comment that we have ceased to live out of many of our foundational truths as Christians (such as who is allowed to minister and what it means to be missional, relational, and incarnational).

Making Church "Better" vs. "Different"

I think it is also essential to Len's comments of what we are doing with "church." Are we simply trying to make church better, or are we trying to make it different? We can try to make church better by adding on more institutional bondage, or we can make church "different". Making church better often focuses on how we can attract more people to our services. Making church different compels us to rethink what it means to "be the Church" and how we take Christ outside of the the church walls. Len noted that attraction is important. However, it must be about attracting people to Christ-- not coming to church service. Our mission is not to have larger crowds on Sunday, but to lead people to Christ. While that is what most people think they are doing by making church "better" and drawing bigger crowds, it is not always successful in actually making disciples. What a powerful statement about proposition vs. Truth. While we must use a proposition to relay the Truth, we have tended to view the proposition as the truth. But, the Truth is a person (Christ), not a proposition.

Followership Instead of Leadership

I also liked Len's comments regarding leadership. Because I've just completed two years of intense coursework in leadership studies, this was really important to me. I agree with his ideas about followership. He noted that everyone wants to be a leader, but no one wants to be a follower. However, Christ is the leader and we are all followers. If we lead, it is only behind/from/through the leadership of Christ. I also appreciated the comment by one participant that perhaps pastors should be more reflective of mentors to those in the congregation. Yes, I believe everyone is a "leader" in the sense that everyone influences another in some way. However, not everyone has the ability to be effective at leading organizations, etc. And, to consider ourselves as followers helps humble us. I really liked the concept of the "priesthood of all believers"-- that our baptism is our ordination into ministry to the Body and our commission as a missionary to the world.

75% of American Churches in Decline

And, I am still amazed at the statistics discussed. For instance, of America's 330,000 churches, 75% of them are in decline. Of the 25% that are growing, the majority of those are mega-churches gaining in numbers from the churches that are in decline. It is basically growth from "sheep-swapping". Barna suggests that only 2,000 or so churches are actually experiencing growth predominantly from new converts. That is sad. It is not our mission-- as true church growth is accomplished when those who do not know Christ find Him. And, I liked the idea that churches spend so much time writing (and rewriting) mission statements, when we already have a mission statement given to us by Christ.

My Own Denomination

On the drive home, I thought about this: There are some 6 billion people on the earth. There are supposedly about 600 million (maybe more) individuals on the planet that profess to be Pentecostal or Charismatic. The Church of God (Cleveland, TN), of which I am a member and licensed minister, has roughly 6 million members. The Church of God only has 1% of the Pentecostal/Charismatic number. And, the Church of God only has one-tenth of 1% of the world's population. Yet, we applaud ourselves as "the best thing going". And I'm not arguing whether we are or are not-- only that something is not working (especially if we are now in decline in the US as a denomination and failing to take in more members than we lose-- which is reportedly the case over the last few years). I'm also concerned that much of our growth (at least in the US) is from other churches instead of new converts. I love the Church of God. Yet, I am very concerned. I also believe there is a great disconnect between the Church of God and the majority of individuals my age. Since I "officially" joined the church in 1992, I've been hearing the phrase "We must get back to the basics." When will we do this? (And please know this comes from a tone of desperation and not a tone of anger).

There was so much more discussed, and my comments are only the tip of it. (Maybe I'll post more about being incarnational later on.) I hope I haven't misunderstood any of Len's comments. I certainly do not wish to represent Len's ideas incorrectly, and I'm still trying to process through it all. It was great to fellowship with others from various Christian backgrounds.

You can discover more of Len’s work at http://www.leonardsweet.com/.

John Edwards leaving the race

2008-01-30T09:38:00.000-05:00

I'm saddened to hear that John Edwards will be announcing the end to his bid for President today. The announcement is scheduled for 1pm EST in New Orleans. I have another candidate in mind, but I do have some reservations. If Edwards happens to be selected as the VP running mate for this other candidate, then it will be a "done deal" for me and that candidate will get my vote. But for now, I guess I'll have to remove my yard signs supporting Edwards. Bummer!!!

Meeting Senator John Edwards

2008-01-28T19:22:00.000-05:00

Today I met John Edwards. I've been supporting him for a few months now, so I was thrilled to learn that he would be visiting in Chattanooga this morning. I like his policies, especially his support for the common working man and woman. He's very personable to speak with one-on-one, and I also got his signature. I also enjoyed listening to Jim Bilbo, a local Cleveland guy who spoke on behalf of the Tennessee Democratic Party. Senator Edwards ranks third in the primaries and caucuses held to date, but I hope Super Tuesday on February 5th will change things.

Blessings Divine

2008-01-25T17:13:00.000-05:00

Blessings Divine
by Louis F. Morgan

Oh boundless love divine,
From the Father’s heart to mine.
A love that guides my path day by day
To serve others along the way.

Oh boundless grace divine,
Secure in Christ’s mercy for all time.
I seek to be His hands extended,
Making sure broken lives are mended.

Oh boundless joy divine,
As my will is exchanged for Thine.
Peace and serenity from within overflow,
Cheering my heart and warming my soul.

1/25/2008

Snowing in Cleveland

2008-01-16T19:50:00.000-05:00

It was an awesome drive home from work this evening as the snow was falling. An hour later, my neighbors rang my doorbell and attempted to throw snowballs at me. Fortunately, I quickly became aware of their plan. :-) But, there was a light dusting of snow on the ground and on my roof. Also, later on my friends brought me a gift-- a snowman they made. The pics don't show the snow as much as I had hoped, but here they are for your enjoyment.

100 Years Ago Today

2008-01-13T13:24:00.000-05:00

One hundred years ago today at 7am, my great-grandmother was born on a family farm in southern Mississippi. (This was near the community of Kokomo, Mississippi). Supposedly, it was a misty Monday morning. My great-grandmother was named Dessie Modese Forbes. Her mother allowed her first cousin to name her, and her first cousin named her after characters in a book. In 1924, at age 16, she married my great-grandfather, Collins Pittman, and they had five children, including my grandmother, Kathleen Morgan.

I had a special bond with my "Granny" Dessie. She lived in a trailer behind my family's home in Morgantown, Mississippi, for most of my childhood. When she passed away in 2002, I was holding her hand as she took her last breath. (See the blog about that). I know what it means to be loved unconditionally because of my Granny, and today I try to share that same love with others. She had a great impact on my life.

So today, as I'm winding my way through the hills of Virginia on my way back to Tennessee, I cannot help but think about Granny. While I wish she were here so I could celebrate her 100th birthday with her, I know that she is much happier in the land to which she has been transplanted. She followed The Way, and today she is enjoying eternity in the presence of the Lord.

Happy 100th Birthday, Granny! I will always love you.

Rambling through Virginia

2008-01-11T15:46:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I drove to Virginia Beach to surprise my classmates who are taking their comprehensive exam. Although I took the comp exam in September (along with another classmate-- because we took all of our elective courses during the summer and finished the coursework a semester early), it seems like old times to be with my classmates who have encouraged me so much during the last two years. We've struggled together through the difficult material, rejoiced with one another over accomplishments, and even drilled each other with difficult questions so that we could "dig deeper" into the field of leadership studies. For all of their encouragement to me, I wanted to surprise them and encourage them on their "big day." As I am typing this, they should be completing the exam. My thoughts and prayers have been with them today.

Meanwhile, I have been enjoying the day. (Should I feel guilty since all my classmates have been in an exam all day? Nah!!) Staying with my friend Danny (who attended Lee and worked there in the past), I have had a great time experiencing downtown Norfolk. Danny lives less than a block from the water in an apartment of an old house. It is an awesome location. Today I walked the cobblestone streets and found a neat place to get my hair cut. Then I spent some time walking around and looking at the old houses.

I just drove to Virginia Beach and am at The Founders' Inn, where my classmates should be arriving soon. Later on this evening I will enjoy dinner with my professor and his family, where we will spend some time discussing my dissertation topic. But for now, I'm enjoying a very relaxing day and thinking about the goodness of God.

Here are some pics from the historic district of downtown Norfolk, Virginia. Enjoy!

Children: "For Such is the Kingdom of Heaven"

2008-01-04T22:43:00.000-05:00

Just before Christmas, I had the opportunity to visit a school. While there, one of the teachers asked me to read a story to her students. Initially I was hesitant to do so, thinking the students would not be interested in listening to someone they didn't know. But, it turned out to be a great experience. The students had a book they liked, so that is the one I read to them. It was The Crippled Lamb by Max Lucado. If you have small children, this is a great story to share with them. (Actually, I think all ages will find it inspiring). I ended the story by reminding the students they each have a special purpose on this earth. It was a great day! I learned later the students liked my reading and wanting me to return and read another story to them.

The Deceit of Upward Mobility and the Pursuit of Downward Mobility

2007-12-28T17:14:00.000-05:00

Success, fame, power… these are things that most individuals see as the better life. They are lofty goals from which many people derive their identity and self-worth. But are they appropriate goals for followers of Christ? In a world that applauds success and power, the true Christ-life is one that seeks the downward path of humilty, self-sacrifice, and service.

Last week I read The Selfless Way of Christ: Downward Mobility and the Spiritual Life by Henri Nouwen (2007, Orbis). I was both inspired and challenged by this small book that cuts to the heart of Christian formation and vocation. I hope that I take its message to heart and allow Nouwen’s words to guide me as I seek to follow Christ.

According to Nouwen, the path of downward mobility can be hindered by the temptation to be relevant, spectacular, and powerful. However, the downward path can be attained through an intimate relationship with Christ that is exhibited through true humility and service to others.

Here are some excerpts:

“Ministry and the spiritual life belong together. Living a spiritual life is living in an intimate communion with the Lord. It is seeing, hearing, and touching. Living a life of ministry is witnessing to him in the midst of this world. It is opening the eyes of our brothers and sisters in the human family to his presence among us, so that they too may enter into this relationship of love.”

“Our whole way of living is structured around climbing the ladder of success and making it to the top. Our very sense of vitality is dependent upon being part of the upward pull and upon the joy provided by the rewards given on the way up. Our parents, teachers, and friends impress upon us from the moment we are able to pick up the cues that it is our holy task to make it in this world. To be a real man or woman is to show that one cannot only survive the long competitive struggle for success but also come out victorious. Individuals as well as institutions tell us in a variety of ways that we must conquer knowledge and people; we must strive to wield influence and be successful. And even love itself is either something to be conquered or a reward for the victorious.”

“[T]rue growth is something other than the uncontrolled drive for upward mobility in which making it to the top becomes its own goal and in which ambition no longer serves a wider ideal. There is a profound difference between the false ambition for power and the true ambition to love and serve. It is the difference between trying to raise ourselves up and trying to lift up our fellow human beings. The problem is not in the desire for development and progress as an individual or a community, but in making upward mobility itself into a religion. In this religion we believe that success means that God is with us while failure means that we have sinned. We are taught to conceive of development in terms of an ongoing increase in human potential.”

“The story of our salvation stands radically over and against the philosophy of upward mobility. The great paradox of Scripture which reveals to us is that real and total freedom is only found through downward mobility. The Word of God came down to us and lived among us as a slave. The divine way is indeed the downward way…. Indeed, the one who was from the beginning with God and who was God revealed himself as a small helpless child; as a refugee in Egypt; as an obedient adolescent and inconspicuous adult; as a penitent disciple of the Baptizer; as a preacher from Galilee, followed by some simple fishermen; as a man who ate with sinners and talked with strangers; as an outcast, a criminal, a threat to his people. He moved from power to powerlessness, from greatness to smallness, from success to failure, from strength to weakness, from glory to ignominy. The whole life of Jesus of Nazareth was a life in which all upward mobility was resisted. Some people wanted to make him king. They wanted him to show power. They wanted to share in his influence and sit on thrones with him. But he consistently said “no” to all these desires and pointed to the downward way.”

“Discipline in the spiritual life…has nothing to do with the discipline of athletics, academic study, or job training, in which physical fitness is achieved, new knowledge is acquired, or a new skill is mastered. The discipline of the Christian disciple is not to master anything, but rather to be mastered by the Spirit. True Christian discipline is the human effort to create the space in which the Spirit of Christ can transform us into his lineage.”

A Must Read-- Deadly Viper Character Assasins

2007-12-23T19:34:00.000-05:00

I just finished reading Deadly Viper Character Assasins by Mike Foster and Jud Wilhite. It was recommended to me by a friend, and I highly recommend it as well. It is an easy read-- (I received it in the mail one day and had finished reading it by the next day)-- and it applies to everyone, but especially those in leadership positions. It focuses on integrity and personal character. Check out more at the authors' website: http://deadlyviper.org/

Christmas Food and Fun at Lee

2007-12-08T11:45:00.000-05:00

The annual Lee University Christmas dinner was held last evening at The Chattanoogan Hotel in downtown Chattanooga. I always enjoy getting to visit with other faculty and staff from across campus who I do not get to see very often during the semester. Last night I sat at the table with Debby White and her husband Cal, Sherri Hartgraves, Robin Tirey, Phebe Gray and her husband, and Alan Wheeler. The Lee University Singers provided the entertainment for the evening, and the food was delicious as always. It is always a wonderful way to end the fall semester.

Above is the Christmas tree at my home. Below I'm pictured with Robin Tirey (left) and Sherri Hartgraves (right).

Give Me Jesus ~ as sung by Jeremy Camp

2007-12-04T21:17:00.000-05:00

This song is one of my all-time favorites! This is one of my "life songs".

Thinking of Mississippi

2007-11-28T13:21:00.000-05:00

My mom sent me a few pics of "my place" in Mississippi. This is where I stay when I go home to visit with them. I call it "my sanctuary." It is in the middle of the woods and right on the banks of Pearl River. The other day my Dad was walking through the woods and field and counted 21 deer, mostly does. Here is a pic of a few does in the short field directly behind where my trailer is on the lake. It makes me miss home!

Also, here is a pic of my dad, me, my mom, and my grandfather.

Thanksgiving gratitute

2007-11-23T15:47:00.000-05:00

So here in the States it is our Thanksgiving holiday. I've enjoyed spending the few days away from work with some great friends in South Carolina. This time of year is also one in which I think about some of the things for which I am most thankful. This has been a wonderful year for me. I am happier than I have ever been in my life, and I feel like good things are ahead. Some of the things for which I am thankful include (in no particular order):

- A large, loving family that is very supportive

- Being able to visit my grandmother and say "goodbye" the evening she passed away in the summer

- Traveling to Europe and having one of the most spiritual experiences of my life in Assisi, Italy

- Completing my coursework for the PhD program and passing my comp exam

- Receiving a promotion at work

- Having some articles published, especially one for Charisma magazine

- Leading a group of Lee University students on a visit at a local nursing home

- Being able to speak at the 90th anniversary service for my home church in Morgantown, Mississippi

- Knowing that I am pouring into students at Lee University and making a positive difference for them

- Spending time with good friends and their families in Cleveland, TN

- Purchasing my first home

- The caring church family at Ethos (City Church in Chattanooga, TN) and also having the opportunity to speak there recently

- Watching the waves as I walked along the beach of Virginia's Eastern Shore

- Watching my friends' kids run around my yard and even joining in their game of football

- Understanding more clearly who I am called to be and to whom I am called to serve

- Spending some quiet time in the garden and chapel at Lake Junaluska in North Carolina

- Friends throughout the world who brighten my day with an email or phone call

- Being selected to receive the "Excellence in Academic Advising" award at Lee University for 2006-07

- TV nights and lunch at the Mexican restaurant with close friends

- Lunch at Diamond Lil's restaurant in downtown Cleveland

- Sharing laughter, food, and fellowship with great friends in Virginia Beach, Virginia

- Learning to appreciate the beauty of my rose garden

- Quiet evenings at home with a good book and cup of hot chocolate

- Realizing that the best life is one devoted to the Lord and lived in simplicity

These are just a few things for which I am most thankful this year. I trust you can name some things that have brought you much joy throughout this year also.

Happy Thanksgiving!

On my birthday... I learned I am "suspicious"

2007-11-23T15:35:00.000-05:00

(Written on November 21st): So today is my birthday, and I'm visiting friends in SC for Thanksgiving. I got the urge to go to Panera Bread to check my email and then go the bookstore nearby. I was driving on a 4-lane highway that looks like an interstate. The speed limit was 55 mph, and I was so carried away in thought listening to a CD of one of Lee University's choirs that I was going 60. I went over a hill and was stopped by a state trooper because apparently I was going 60 mph in a 45 mph zone. Who knew it was a 45 mph zone? And what stinks is that the 55 mph sign where it started back again to 55 was less than 1,000 ft in front of me. I could see it plain as day when I was pulled over. So I guess I got a $76 birthday gift from the state of SC-- only I have to pay it to them. :-( This is my first ticket since 1995. And the irony of it is that when the trooper gave me the ticket the choir song playing on the CD was "Lord, Have Mercy". So what is the moral of this story? I guess it is that I shouldn't worship while driving b/c I miss the speed limit signs!!!

But as if that was not enough... After finally making it to Panera Bread and staying there for awhile, I decided to find the bookstore-- but made sure I drove under the speed limit this time. I kept driving and looking for the bookstore until I drove out of the business area and into a residential area. I found a subdivision in which I could turn around. While driving in the subdivision to find a street where I could turn around, I passed a city police officer flashing a search light into the wooded area in the subdivision. When I was able to turn around, he pulled me over on my way back. Apparently he was looking for someone and I seemed to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. I was stopped for being "suspicious". Thankfully, I did not fit the description of the one for whom they were searching. At that point I decided to forget the bookstore and just get back to my friends' house!

When I got to my friends' house, I enjoyed a great meal and was surprised with a Boston Cream Cake. (My great-grandmother always made this for me on my brithday, and I was planning to bake one for myself this weekend.) It was a real surprise, and a delicious cake!!!

Magazine article about the Church of God in Christ (COGIC)

2007-11-10T21:58:00.001-05:00

Regent Ph.D. Student Authors Cover Article in November Issue of Charisma
Article highlights history and future of Pentecostal movement
October 29, 2007

VIRGINIA BEACH, Va. - Regent University Ph.D. student Louis F. Morgan is author of the lead cover story in the November 2007 issue of Charisma.

In his article titled, "The Flame Still Burns," Morgan, a minister and historian, takes an in-depth look at the Pentecostal movement in America and how the Church of God in Christ (COGIC) is poised to spread the Gospel worldwide.

According to Morgan, "this is the story of God’s blessings on a group of humble people seeking to serve God in the purity of His holiness and the power of His Spirit. While we cannot live in the past, we must not forsake the biblical principles and moral character exemplified among so many of our early leaders."

He continued, "In an era where the Gospel has become commercialized, I hope this article inspires readers to have reverence for the sacred and to renew their focus on the foundational mission of the Church."

Originally from Morgantown, Miss., Morgan's family has been active in the Pentecostal movement since 1909. Combining his leadership training at Regent with his personal interest in Pentecostal history, Morgan has been able to review the work of some of the major Pentecostal leaders of the last century and has tried to discover the way they both proclaimed and modeled the Truth of scripture.

"I have been challenged by the Ph.D. program, especially because of its integration of faith with the academic material, to re-examine my own beliefs and listen more closely to the message the Pentecostal movement communicates to the world," stated Morgan.

"As a result of my studies at Regent," he continued, "I have developed remarkably (academically, professionally and spiritually) and have been given the tools needed to assist others with their leadership challenges and goals."

Morgan has published two books and numerous articles on Pentecostal history, has served as archivist at the Dixon Pentecostal Research Center in Cleveland, Tenn., and is a licensed minister in the Church of God (Cleveland).

He is currently completing his Ph.D. in Organizational Leadership from Regent University's School of Global Leadership & Entrepreneurship and serves as an instructor and librarian at Lee University in Cleveland, Tenn. Morgan hopes to add to the leadership field through continual research and publishing as well as continue his role at Lee University.

To read "The Flame Still Burns," visit www.charismamag.com/toc.php

Will I Allow God To Use Me To Help Turn The Tide?

2007-09-09T13:33:00.000-04:00

As I lay down to sleep last night, I was overcome with God's presence and the desire to spend more time in prayer. After doing so, I went to the bookshelf where I keep some books that once belonged to a great aunt. Most of the books are very old and deal with religious themes. Oddly, I was drawn to a book that I did not know I had. It was God's Chosen Fast by Arthur Wallis (1968). I began reading the book, and completed half of it before finally returning to bed.

Although the book focuses on the spiritual discipline of fasting, there were certain sections that really spoke to me-- especially considering some of the recent moral failures that have taken place among prominent Christian leaders. It offers inspiration to all of us who want to see righteousness exhalted, both in our own life and throughout the rest of the world.

In the words of Wallis:

"Behind many of our besetting sins and personal failures, behind the many ills that infect our church fellowships and clog the channels of Christian service-- the clash of personalities and temperaments, the strife and division-- lies that insidious pride of the human heart.

"God wants to bring us beyond the place of mourning only for our personal sins, to where we are moved by the Spirit to mourn for the sins of the Church, the nation, and even the world. It is of the deepest concern to God to find those who share His feelings for the spiritual situation that exists on evey hand.

"Ezekiel was given a vision of the judgment of God coming upon Jerusalem because of its abominations. Before the heavenly executors were permitted to destroy the inhabitants of the city, a man was sent before them to 'put a mark upon the foreheads of the men who sigh and groan over all the abominations that are committed in it'. The executioners were then commanded to go forth and slay without mercy all except those who had the mark, and to begin at God's sanctuary (Ezek. 9:4-6).

"Heaven marks the men who feel with God for the sins that break His heart and turn away His heart from us. The same abominations are still being committed in sanctuary and in the city. If today God put a mark on those who sign and groan because of this, and then sent forth His executioners to destroy all but those with the mark, would we escape?

"Will such mourning accomplish anything? Indeed, it may be just as remedial in the corporate sphere as in the personal. True, in Ezekiel's vision the sin of the people had reached the point of 'no return' and judgment had become inevitable, but this is by no means always the case. There is always the hope that spiritual forces will be released which will work towards repentance and recovery.

"The eyes of the Lord are still searching the earth today for the Ezras who will confess the sins of a faithless remnant, weeping and casting themselves down before the Lord; or the Nehemiahs who will weep and mourn, fast and pray for the walls that are broken down, and the gates that are destroyed by fire. If restoration and renewal are to come from the presence of the Lord-- and what hope is there without them?-- then it is men and women like these whom God will use to turn the tide."

One Restful Evening

2007-09-08T00:45:00.001-04:00

For two days I've been feeling poorly... my first cold in two years. I had to skip work yesterday afternoon and all day today. Finally, I went to the doctor, who gave me a shot and some medicine. It is sinus trouble-- but no wonder with this extremely high temperature and no rain for weeks.

I spent most of the day preparing for my final comp exam, which I will attempt next week. I have two chances to pass comps, beginning with Friday the 14th. So, it is important that I get to feeling better. But I also made great progress on preparing for them today.

About 8 PM I decided I had studied enough today and had the urge for brownies. I never bake brownies, cookies, or much else for that matter. So, I went to the grocery store and purchased some brownie mix. I came home, turned on the "oldies" radio station, and made myself some brownies. I have to say that it has been a very relaxing evening. And, I'm already feeling much better for which I am thankful.

For those reading this, I hope that you are having a wonderful day as well-- finding rest and joy even in the small things.

This Is My Desire

2007-08-07T00:44:00.000-04:00

I cannot sleep, which seldom happens to me. This was a grueling first day of my final residency for my Ph.D. program. I seem to have so much on my mind, and I have a very busy day tomorrow. And what am I doing? Sitting here typing in the early morning hours. Actually, I went to bed at a decent hour, but I have spent most of the time lying there and thinking about my actions today. I experienced some major frustration over coursework that I did not understand, which resulted in my having a bad attitude-- and reacting in a way that displeases me. My profs are clueless as to my frustration, but it happened nonetheless. No, my reaction wasn't a major deal, but it revealed to me some of the things that are in my heart. Yes, I realize my own humanity and fallen state, but I still strive for a pure heart. Psalm 19:14 and Micah 6:8 have been on my mind for the last hour, so I decided to add them to my blog. This way, each day when I see them they will remind me of how I want to live before the Lord.

Problems arise; frustrations are inevitable. Nonetheless, I still have the responsibility to react to such situations in a way that pleases God. This is part of what it means to be a Follower of the Way. No, it doesn't happen overnight, but it is part of that progression toward becoming the person I desire to be-- and whom God desires for me to be. So in these early morning hours, I reflect on the love of God and the blessings that are given so freely from this Loving Creator. My heart cries out within me, "Lord, help me live according to your will and to have a right attitude and pure heart in my thoughts and actions." I didn't pass the test yesterday, but I'm glad that it is now a new day-- with a fresh provision of mercy-- and another opportunity to do better. This is my desire.

A few images from Rome and Assisi (Italy)

2007-07-03T09:50:00.000-04:00

View of the old city of Rome

The Tiber River in Rome

Sunset in Rome - Victory Monument

Woman feeding pigeons near St. Agnes Basilica in Rome

The Systine Chapel at the Vatican in Rome

Smart cars are everywhere in Europe

Dr. Corne Bekker, our professor for the trip

View from The Hermitage, the place of prayer for St. Francis near Assisi

With Father Frank in Assisi -- He prayed a prayer of blessing over me.

Posing with the Torch in Assisi, Italy. (It's a Lee University thing).

A woman preparing the day's vegetables outside of her restaurant in Assisi. The food is always fresh and delicious.

The road to San Damiano, the church in which St. Francis heard God speak to him, "Go and rebuild my church."

In my Italian attire standing next to an antique Bentley in Assisi

Beautiful flowers are everywhere in Italy.

Views from the mountain in Assisi, Italy.

Italy / Switzerland trip -- Day 1

2007-06-16T10:48:00.000-04:00

I left Cleveland on Wednesday AM June 13. (Thanks to Jean for the ride to the Chattanooga airport!) I flew into Atlanta, where I had a 5 hour wait. Then I finally boarded the train for Zurich, Switzerland, and arrived there in the early morning June 14. As true to my nature, I met many individuals in the airport on my way. While in Chattanooga airport I saw Phil Stacey )from American Idol) and conversed with him-- also did the typical thing and had my pic made with him. (He was nice to do that). He was at Lee University the day before, but I missed seeing him there. He is an alumnus of Lee and was on his way to Los Angeles to begin the American Idol tour. He's a super guy-- good to see him. I also saw a soldier leaving his family-- all of them in tears. He was on the same plane as me. That was difficult to watch.

I was so exhausted in the Atlanta airport, and the plane ride to Zurich was long. But, I was excited to be in another country once I finally arrived. There are some beautiful places in Switzerland, so I am ready to tour the various places there.

I will have to write more later. I am in an internet cafe in Rome, Italy at the moment. I only have a few minutes left on my internet card. But, I will update tomorrow, if possible, and also post some pics.

Take care!

Final Moments With My Mentor

2007-06-12T16:51:00.000-04:00

I just returned home from visiting the bedside of one of my mentors, Dr. Cecil Knight, who has cancer. He is at home and his wife, children and other family members are there with him. As his son led me into the bedroom, Dr. Knight reached out his hand to me and said, "Louis, you are a friend to me... a real friend." Then I told him that I wanted him to know that I am thinking about him, praying for him, and love him.

Dr. Knight grew up in Mississippi not far from my hometown. He lived in Hattiesburg, and my hometown (Morgantown) is about 40 miles away. Hattiesburg is a busy, southern city... Morgantown is just a country village. However, Dr. Knight tells about how the ministers from my hometown were mentors to him, men who encouraged him in his youth when he became discouraged and could have lost away. It was at Morgantown that Dr. Knight preached one of his first revivals outside of Hattiesburg, and that was in the 1940s.

When my home church celebrated its 75th anniversary, Dr. Knight was asked to preached the service. It seemed only natural in light of his connection with the church and his service to the denomination with which we are affiliated. (Dr. Knight served as the presiding bishop for the denomination at one time, and he served for many years as president of the denomination's seminary). It was during this church anniversary service that I spoke briefly about the local church's history. Following that service, Dr. Knight spent some time with me and encouraged me to attend the denomination's college. Although several members of my family had attended the college, I never considered it as an option. It just seemed too far removed from my life and family. However, Dr. Knight planted the seeds that eventually became a reality. I did attend the church college (now university), and today I am a member of the faculty at this same institution.

When I did move to the college, Dr. Knight was serving as president of the Seminary located next to the campus. On more than one occasion I went to his office, where he always greeted me and took time to talk to me and encourage me. In addition, God used Dr. Knight to confirm His calling on my life for ministry. So, it is clear that Dr. Knight has become an important person in my spiritual development.

A few years ago Dr. Knight called me and asked if I would consider driving him to Mississippi. He was speaking at a conference there and his wife, unable to attend, did not want him to travel alone. I happily agreed. On the way to Mississippi, we drove through Birmingham, Alabama. There, Dr. Knight showed me the old church building where he pastored in the 1950s. I never pass the street on which that church is located that I do not envision Dr. and Mrs. Knight as a young married couple inside that church building. Also during that drive, Dr. Knight shared many stories with me concerning his life, ministry, and work in the denomination.

So today I was grateful for the opportunity to tell him once again what a profound mark he has made on my life. I am so thankful for his guidance and influence. As he looked up at me from his bed, he admonished me, "Keep your eyes on the goal and your heart in tune with the Lord, and you will fulfill what He has for you". I tried to hold back my tears, but to no avail. (I come from a long line of tender-hearted men in my family). And as we shared a few more comments, he told me, "Don't give up, keep your faith and trust in the Lord, and He'll be with you." I told him that was my goal.

I believe Dr. Knight senses his soon departure from this world for his entrance into the world to come. His comments alluded to being true to God, being humble before Him, and of the blessed hope of life eternal with Christ Jesus. Although we do not know the lifespan for any one of us, I feel in my heart that this time today was my last "mentoring session" with Dr. Knight. I am thankful for the life and ministry of this man who has influenced my own life in a tremendous way. Most of all, I am grateful to be called his friend.

Grandma Made It Home

2007-05-29T15:18:00.000-04:00

After months of ill health, my grandma made it home this weekend. She passed away peacefully on Sunday morning about 5:30 AM. I made it to the hospital in Biloxi on Saturday evening and was able to visit with her twice that evening. As there was no place to rest in the hospital, we went to my grandparents' home near Picayune, Mississippi. There we received the phone call the next morning letting us know that she had finally made it home.

The funeral will be tomorrow (Wednesday), and I will assist in the service. I will post more later, but I wanted to give an update for those interested. Our hearts are sad, but we are thankful that she did not have to suffer much. My grandma was a wonderful woman who loved the Lord, and she leaves us with great assurance that if we continue to Follow the Way we will see her again.

I appreciate your continued prayers for the family.

Called Home

2007-05-25T22:10:00.000-04:00

Tonight I am thinking about my grandmother, Ollie Virginia Lee. Next month she will be 83 years old, but it is doubtful she will make it to her next birthday. As I write this, she is in a Biloxi, Mississippi, hospital in critical condition. I leave in the AM to go be with her and my family.

My grandmother lives near the Mississippi Gulf Coast, and she has had some difficult health problems since Hurricane Katrina. She fell during the hurricane and injured herself, but it was 2 weeks before she was able to see a doctor. For over a year she was in constant pain-- only to discover in October that she had injured her colon. It was infected badly and it had to be removed. At the time I was at a conference in Indianapolis. It looked as if she would not live, so I rented a car and drove all the way to southern Mississippi. It was wonderful to spend some time visiting with her, but I did not think she would leave that hospital alive.

My g'ma was in the hospital for about a month. Yet, she survived. In fact, she was doing better. By Christmas she was able to move around the house more with the aid of her walker. I am so thankful we were able to spend the holidays together as a family. I believe it was one of the happiest Christmas gatherings we've ever had together. And, in recent months she seemed to be improving even more. Yet, last weekend she was hospitalized again. This time her legs were swelling and fluid was collecting around her heart. She was released later in the week after the swelling went down.

I called her last evening. We had a good phone conversation. I like to joke with her, so I said, "G'ma I know you were wanting to get out of the house and have a vacation, but the hospital is not the best place to take a vacation." She laughed. Then she told me about all the swelling, but said it had all gone away. I joked again, "Well now you can just go find yourself a bikini!"

I'm so thankful that I called her. We did not talk very long because I could tell she was out of breath. But it was a good talk, and very special because I love her dearly.

My father called me after work today. He was upset and could hardly talk. I noticed the call was coming from Mother's cell phone, and I thought that they might be at a lake they enjoy visiting. He was so upset, however, that at first I thought something must have happened to Mother. My heart sank deep within me. Finally he was able to tell me that g'ma was in the hospital and not expected to make it. She and g'pa were on their way to see her doctor this AM when she had a heart attack. She can communicate, but she is very weak. She asked to be taken off of life support, which the doctors have done. They say that now it is only a matter of time.

So, in a few hours I will leave for the Mississippi Gulf Coast-- not exactly sure what to find. But this one thing I do know, whether or not I make it before my g'ma passes (if this is her time to go), I love my g'ma very much. She and G'pa Lee have been encouragers to me my whole life.

For my whole life, g'ma has has a good home and loving family. No one would ever suspect the pain she has endured. She had a difficult childhood. Her mother died before my g'ma was two years old. G'ma was sent to live with her aunt and uncle. The uncle was very kind to her, but the aunt seemed to resent having an extra child to raise and was not always good to g'ma. Yet, my g'ma loved her aunt. Somehow she realized that they were all just doing the best they could, I guess.

When she became an adult, my g'ma married a good man. His last name was Jeter. She reflected back on how happy they were, but he was killed in an accident not long after their marriage. She later married my G'pa Fortenberry, but he did not treat her with respect and was abusive to her. They divorced, only to marry a second time and divorce again.

Ironically, today is exactly ten years since my G'pa Fortenberry took his own life. (He was in ill health, my G'ma Fortenberry had passed away 2 years prior, and he thought he might have to go into a nursing home). Despite the difficulty my g'pa gave to others at different points in his life-- including my g'ma, I still loved him. He had calmed down by the time I was born, and we had a great relationship. So, I also think of him today as well.

After her divorce, my g'ma had a difficult time supporting herself and her two daughters. But things were better after she married G'pa Lee. He has given her such a good life. Without doubt, the best years of her life have been since she was married to G'pa Lee. In the last year alone he's been so attentive to her.

So tonight I'm thinking about g'ma. I no longer pray that God will renew her strength. Instead, I ask God to grant her the rest that she so deserves and is awaiting eagerly. Whether or not I make it home in time to say good-bye, in reality it is only good-day... because she has been a Follower of the Way and I will see her again in the great eternal day.

More House Pics

2007-05-17T19:57:00.000-04:00

Here are some more pics of my house. I think you will be able to tell the difference between the "before" and the "after" pics. I'm still in the process of painting the house, especially the trim. That is noticeable in some of the pics. But, this will give you an idea of my progress. Enjoy!

Recent House Renovations

2007-05-15T18:25:00.000-04:00

I purchased my first home in February. Since then I've spent many hours working in the yard and painting inside the house. The first week of April my parents came and helped me work on the house as well. I thought I'd post a couple of "before and after" pics so you can see the updates. Of course, it is still a work in progress. But, I think things are looking pretty sweet around my house these days. :-)

*The difference above is that I had a hiddeous, towering pine tree that crowded the yard cut down. I then planted two small dogwoods and a rose tree. I also had a gravel side-parking area moved over and some dirt poured in its place. I planted grass over the dirt, which is still in the process of growing.

*The difference above is that the bird-feeder stand has been moved to the side of the house. My mother planted some day-lillies around the stand and around the front of the shed. I also planted 6 climbing rose bushes along the fence row. They have really started to grow over the last 2 weeks.

*This is just a better view of the front of the house. You can see one of the dogwoods and also one of the hibiscus bushes that I planted. The hibiscus has started to get some leaves on it. Also, you can see where my dad has primed the trim of the house and the gutters. I'm trying to determine whether to leave them white or to paint them a very light cream color. Any suggestions?

In a few weeks, a landscaping class at Lee University is going to use my flower beds as a class project. They will design and construct a flower bed along the front of my house, complete with new plants and flowers. I'm really stoked about that. I'll post pics when that is done.

I'll post some "before and after" pics of the inside of the house soon. That is where I have spent most of my time and energy. :-)

Humbled, Honored to Receive University Award

2007-05-09T11:10:00.000-04:00

(Photo: Lee University 2007 Faculty Award recipients. L-R: Louis Morgan, Excellence in Advising; Michael Freake, Excellence in Scholarship; Tony Deaton, Excellence in Teaching; and Dr. Paul Conn, Lee University President)

Have you ever stopped to think about how some things seem to be gifts given to us from some supernatural place? I'm not sure who will read this, so I'm not sure if you even believe in God. But I do, and I experienced something this week that I believe was a blessing from God. It was just like God knew my need for a little boost and said, "Here's a little something special just for you."

This semester has been intense (both as I completed my last core course in the PhD program and had a busier-than-usual workload at the office). It is one of those rare times when I'm asking myself, Is all of this work I do really worth it in the end? Needless to say, I'm ending this semester tired and could use a little vacation. So, to relax I've been spending time working in my yard, reading, and trying to rest.

Then, last week I received a phone call at the office explaining that I had been chosen for one of the 3 faculty awards presented by the university each year. During the commencement exercises yesterday I was presented the Excellence in Advising award. I am overwhelmed with gratitude, and very excited at the same time. It was as if God was saying, "Hey, I see you. I know you are tired and work hard, but I'm here and I'm coming along side you to give you the support you need right now." God always knows how to make me feel better! :-)

I've been serving as an academic advisor for 4 years to students who have not yet declared a major. I doubt students know how much I care about them and their success, pray for them, and try to assist them on campus. It is a true joy to serve them. They are more than my students; they are my friends.

As a little child I was taught the importance of loving and caring for others. My home church and community was a place where that gift was nurtured, and now I have the amazing opportunity to utilize God's gift in my life and service at Lee University. I was greatly humbled by this recognition... especially because it is for something that I love doing-- advising students. I can think of no other recognition that means as much to me as having received this award.

I certainly don't mean to be shallow or boastful (because I have actually been very humbled-- even to tears-- by receiving this award), but I thought some of you who know me well might appreciate hearing what Dr. Paul Conn, the university president, said when presenting me the award. It follows:

"At a school such as Lee, where we believe that students are the primary object of our calling and our professional efforts, it is fitting that one of the three awards given each year to faculty should be for excellence in advising.

This year, for the first time, this award is given to a faculty member who does not advise students in a particular major or discipline, but who rather spends his time with those with undeclared majors, the so-called "general" advisees, mostly in the freshman and sophomore classes.

Louis Morgan is a member of the faculty of the Squires Library, where he holds the position of instructional services librarian. In this role, he advises students before they are assigned to departments in their majors. The selection committee for this award, in reviewing student evaluations, identifies Louis as one of the most highly rated advisors on the Lee campus for the past four years. His composite scores in the rating of overall satisfaction of advisees has placed above 4.9 on a 5-point scale, each of the last four years.

It is not uncommon for Louis to spend hours with individual advisees, to send them notes of encouragement, to seek them out when they seem to be struggling, and even to stay in touch with them after they have been assigned to departmental advisors in their junior and senior years. He invests in the lives of students as people, rather then merely processing their academic paperwork.

It can truly be said that an incoming freshman who has the good fortune to be assigned to Louis Morgan for advising is a very fortunate person. Thanks for your care and professionalism, Louis, and congratulations on receiving the 2007 award for Excellence in Advising."

And all I can say is that God always knows how to encourage me, support me, and comfort me. As a child I dedicated my life to serving God-- trying to live according to the teachings of Jesus Christ that commands us to be in a loving relationship with God and a loving relationship with others around us. As a result, God has given me the gift of being able to love all types of people from all types of backgrounds. It is my desire that my life can reflect Christ to others. This week, I believe God is saying to me, "You are on the right track, Louis. Just keep moving forward." God is good, and I am very grateful. I'm renewed with a fresh passion to stay On Mission.

I have returned...

2007-05-07T22:55:00.000-04:00

I apologize for my absence. I've missed the communication. Having just moved into my house and completed my last core course for my doctoral studies (not counting a busy work schedule), I've had alot going on. I've never painted so many rooms in my life as I have in recent months, but the house is looking nice. I've finally made it a comfortable home. I'll post some pics soon.

Also, be sure check in frequently the last half of June. I'm traveling to Europe (specifically England and Italy) for some coursework, and I plan to posts pics and thoughts from my time there. This will be my first trip outside of the US, so I'm very excited about it.

Stay tuned.... I plan to post more regularly now. :-)

Having a Grateful Heart

2007-03-03T10:52:00.000-05:00

This morning I awoke to a phone call. A married couple who are students at the university where I teach were heading out of town to spend the day with one of their friends. But, they wanted to stop by my house. So, I scrambled to get dressed and half-way coherent before their arrival. When they arrived, they came with a house-warming gift: hand tools, a kitchen towel, and fresh baked muffins-- all in a neat basket. I was shocked, to say the least. One of those students helped me paint one of my rooms and then would not let me pay him for it. So I certainly wasn't expecting anything from them. What a great surprise!

After they left I sat down to enjoy the muffins. As I sat there, I thought of the many wonderful expressions from friends since I moved in to my home. I hired three students to help me move, but when it was over none of them would accept any payment. They worked several hours, and I really wanted them to be paid for their labor. But they would not hear of it. The next day my good friend and one of his kids helped me move the remaining few things from my apartment into the house. (He's been a builder in the past, so he always advises me-- and usually helps me-- when I have questions about any minor repairs I see that need work).

Then, I had one friend (who is also a co-worker) "rescue" me during the initial painting process. I had never painted a house before, so the task appeared to be major at first. Yet, I was determined to get it done. The day after I started the process my co-worker appeared at my door eager to help me-- and she put in many long hours of hard work over the next week. I have no idea what I would have done without her. And she would not take any payment either.

Then it seems that as I would begin a project, a friend would come along. And no one will accept payment. Now, it isn't because I'm a charity case. :-) It is because I've actually helped these individuals as well. I have such a giving heart, and I've helped so many of these students, co-workers, and friends with different things over the last few years. One of my joys (which I'm having to force myself to do less-often now that I have a mortgage payment) is taking students to lunch or dinner and picking up their tab. I also "spoil" the 30-something students I advise academically by sending them lots of candy every other month. Heck, last weekend I was enjoying lunch with some students outside a downtown resaurant when a homeless man rode by on a bicycle and asked if we had some money so he could get some food. Although I'm usually skeptical, I honestly had no cash on me. But, I offered to give him half of my sandwich and my dessert. He was so excited-- especially that the food was still warm.

So, I know that having a heart of compassion and love for people is a gift. And I cannot help but to share this gift. In fact, it is what The Way calls us to do. We are to love others, even our enemies-- which I'm still having to work on that part. But when we love others and reveal that love through little actions, words, and deeds, it triggers something in the recipients. They, in turn, want to do something for me. While my expressions seem only natural and I do not do things for others expecting something in return-- and there are many cases when I have not received anything in return, today I realize just how grateful I am for friends and the opportunity to share this life with others-- each of us caring for one other. To me, that is what is really means to be a Follower of The Way. I hope you, too, have some good friends with whom you can reciprocate love and compassion as we all go through this life together.

She Loved Me Unconditionally

2007-03-02T23:48:00.000-05:00

I wrote the following in 2003-- a year after my great-grandmother passed away. On March 5th it will be 5 years since her passing. I posted this last year, but she's on my mind these days and thought I'd share this again. My "Granny" helped me learn how to be a "Follower of The Way", and she always showed me unconditional love. I wish that for everyone!!!

Saying 'Goodbye' To Granny ...
by Louis F. Morgan

Growing up in rural Mississippi, my usual past times were playing in the woods and racing my bicycle down a seldom-traveled street. But those things were secondary; my favorite thing to do was spend time with my great-grandmother. "Granny" was my best friend for as long as I can remember. As a child, I could never imagine life without her.

When I was five years old Granny moved into our home and became my roommate. About a year later she moved into a trailer next door, and I spent most every weekend with her until I entered high school. Granny and I were a pair. Each day following school she had a snack awaiting me. We talked about our day's activities as we ate, and then we watched television together. After that I listened as Granny shared stories about her life's experiences. Through Granny's love for me, the Lord let me experience a measure of His unconditional love. I am forever thankful.

Granny also taught me many things, such as how to cook, buy groceries, plant trees, wash clothes, research genealogy, balance a checkbook, and thousands of other things. I often drove her to town, the doctor's office, or for rides in the country to her old home place. To say the least, I was her pride and joy. She always called me her "heart."

She also encouraged me to live for Jesus. I remember her evening prayers and our discussions about the meaning of certain biblical passages. Too, I "preached" for Granny after she became unable to attend church regularly. Using a bookmark I found in her Bible for my outline, I talked about the plan of salvation. Of course, she was already a Christian, but one would have thought my name was Billy Graham the way she told people about that "sermon". (Granny always did brag on me-- too much, I know.) Yet, she always knew how to build my confidence, and she always believed that I could do anything with the help of the Lord.

Granny was a caregiver to me, which caused me to feel guilty when she moved into a nursing home. Even though it was her own decision and I was attending college 500 miles away, I wished I could help her nonetheless. Initially, we talked for about an hour every Saturday on the telephone, and she told me how good they were to her at the nursing home. That made me feel better, and hearing her voice was reassuring. Too, I always looked forward to our visits on my return trips to Mississippi.

As the years passed I saw Granny growing weaker, and I often wondered how I would make it when the Lord called her home. After her 80th birthday, she began telling me that she would leave for Heaven one day. I always told her that she could not leave me yet; I still needed her too badly. During a visit when she was 94, she told me, "No tears when I go now! No tears." I told her that was one promise I could not make, and, besides, I could not let her go just yet.

Strangely, shortly after that visit I dreamed that Granny came to my bedside and told me, "I sure miss home." Uncertain, I questioned, "Which home?" With a longing look on her face Granny replied, "Where ever Jesus is." I then told her that I hoped she would soon get to go home, and with that I awoke from my sleep. One Saturday evening following, I wiped the tears from my face after talking to God. I thanked God for blessing me with such a loving Granny, and I asked Him to let her go on and be with Him. She was so eager to go to Heaven.

I received a call the following Monday afternoon and learned that Granny was passing away. Quickly I made the 7-hour drive from Tennessee to Mississippi. Granny was still holding on when I arrived, but it was different from my previous visit. Then we had talked, shared a joke, and expressed our love for each other, but now she was unresponsive and unable to look around. It was odd not hearing her welcome me with a hint of surprise. It seemed like she should be saying, "Look who I see!"

When I reached her bedside, I was grateful the Lord had let her live until I arrived. I took her hand and spoke to her, and she began to groan in response to my voice. Through my brokenness and tears, I told her how much I loved her. And those were not just words that I felt were momentarily appropriate. That was, and is, a feeling overflowing from deep within me. Ours was a unique friendship-- an inseparable bond between a boy and his Granny.

That last night with Granny was perhaps the longest of my life, and, ironically, it passed much too quickly. As I sat at her bedside, I remembered the many times I had stayed with her through the years. Through the flood of memories, I realized that the time had finally come. Never before had I been willing to let her go, but I knew that I had no choice this time. The Lord was ready, and Granny had been ready for so many years. It was unfair for me to desire that she stay with me. I prayed for the Lord to give me strength.

About 11:15 the next morning, still at Granny's bedside, I knew it was time to let her go. I brushed her hair with my fingers and took her by the hand. I told her that it was okay to make her passing. She had done all she could do for us here, and the Lord was ready for her. It was okay for her to go and be with Jesus. I told her that we loved her-- that I loved her. And then, she grunted loudly. "Yes," I said with a quivering voice as tears streamed down my face. "I know you love me-- more than anybody else ever has. But you go be with Jesus now and we'll be behind you soon. We will see you in the morning." Those were surely the most difficult words I have ever spoken, but I knew it was right. I knew it was time, and I knew Granny heard me and understood.

The day continued with family members and nurses periodically checking in. My grandmother and great-aunt remained with Granny all day long. By early evening, all the visitors had gone. As my grandmother, great-aunt and I were sitting with Granny something happened inside me, and I knew that Granny was leaving. I jumped from my chair and rushed to her side. My grandmother placed Granny's hand in mine. Fifteen minutes later we noticed a difference in her breathing and color. I kissed her hand and then her forehead. The three of us were beside Granny when she took her two very deep and final breaths. Still holding her hand, I yelled out to her that I loved her-- most certain that she probably did not hear me but that she knew it nonetheless. And when her spirit departed, it seemed as if something inside of me left too. Next to the Lord, Granny was the best friend I ever had.

I wish I could put into words the impact that Granny had on my life. I was born a child with special needs but was always full of big ideas. She managed to nurture those "fancy thoughts," build confidence in my ability, and help me accomplish many childhood goals. There were times in my youth that I needed a good friend. Granny never failed to be there for me, and now I realize that my presence was just as helpful to her.

Today I thank the Lord for such a Christian example. No matter where I go or what I do in life, a part of Granny will always remain with me. My memories of her are many, and I will forever carry her love in my heart. Too, I have the assurance that I will see Granny again in Heaven. And, I have the opportunity to make the same difference in the life of others who need encouragement and friendship. That would make Granny very happy.

[My great-grandmother, Dessie Pittman, went to be with the Lord on March 5, 2002. She's in my future now, and I look forward to meeting her again in Heaven.]

Catching up...

2007-02-19T21:11:00.000-05:00

It has been quite a while since I last posted. Life has been so busy, but good. One reason for my absense from the blog has been my work in purchasing my first home-- and getting it ready to movie into. I made the move this weekend, and am really enjoying my new home (although it is not "new" by any means). The house was built in 1961, so it has alot of character to it. But it is in an excellent location, just a few blocks away from my work. It is also in the historic district of the city in which I live. There are 3 bedrooms / 2 baths, an enclosed garage converted into a utility/storage room, plenty of closet space, and a nice kitchen, dining and living area. I feel so blessed to have found this property. After 13 years of living in either campus housing (5 years) or rental property (8 years), it feels good to call something my own.

Ironically, this house once belonged to an elderly lady who was a grandmother-figure to me when I attended college nearby. She often cooked meals for me and invited me over for dinner. So, there is some sentimental attachment to the house for me. I cannot help but think that she would be so thrilled to know that I have moved into her house.

I spent over a week of nonstop painting and cleaning, and I still need to paint some more. But, at least I was able to get the house ready and moved in this weekend. I had some amazing help with painting and moving, and no one would allow me to pay them for their help. I feel overwhelmed with gratitude to those individuals, as well as extremely loved.

So, now that most of the work is completed that hindered me from blogging, I hope to share my thoughts more frequently. There has been so much positive change in my life during the last few weeks, so I have some good things to share-- like a new church where I believe I "fit", a fresh outlook on life, and even some insight gained during my personal devotion time. I may have been absent for a while, but rest assured that I am still On Mission and following The Way. Blessings to all who read this-- may you experience the feelings of joy and gratitude that abound in my heart this evening.

Enough Love to Share

2007-01-06T01:32:00.000-05:00

It is early morning and I have just returned from a great visit with friends who live near downtown Chattanooga. We enjoyed a good meal, great movie, and interesting conversation. I am thankful for my friends and the time we have to spend together. I believe we also encourage each other. They are a blessing to me.

It seems that my life is filled with people with whom I feel a close bond. I am hardly ever alone, and yet I cherish those alone times as well. Ironcially, my singleness often generates pity from others, which tends to get on my nerves. I doubt there is a week that passes in which someone doesn't express sorrow or offer a plan to try and alleviate my being alone. But for me, singleness is a choice. It is not something that I despise, but something that I enjoy. If I find someone I want to be with, then I reserve the right to change my mind. But for now, I cannot imagine my life any other way.

Sometimes all of the concern and pity make me pause and reflect on why I am single. I'm not certain I have an answer, but I tend to think that it is because of the community in which I grew up. It was a small town of about 300 people, and we all knew each other and were very close. I felt like I belonged to most everyone in the town. Those individuals, many of whom have since passed away, have become rocks in my life. I constantly draw strength and encouragement from my memories of them and their impact on my life and personal development. I was blessed to live near my relatives, even knowing two sets of great-grandparents.

During my recent trip to my hometown for the holidays, my father and I were talking about different individuals within our community who impacted us. I told my father that all I can think of is the love I experienced there. If I never experience love from another individual again in my life, it is quite possible that I received more during my first 20 years than most people do in a whole lifetime. And yet, I am still blessed with individuals who love me.

While I have no short supply of friends, there are times when I experience the selfishness and neglect of those for whom I care. It took me several years to understand how to deal with those actions without feeling hurt or angry. And yet, somehow love always seems to draw me back to the place where I look not at the faults but at the opportunity to share with others the gift God has given me.

Yes, today I realize that my experience growing up is a gift from God. It is also a tool and example with which I can use to provide the same love, acceptance, and compassion to others. I endeavor to do that on a daily basis-- often realizing that I tend to be more of a giver than a taker. When I see individuals, I tend to look beyond all of their faults. Instead, I often see someone who deserves to experience a measure of God's love-- and I try to be the vessel through which God can reveal that love. It is just one way that I seek to be On Mission as I follow The Way.

And when I get to enjoy the company of good friends, like tonight, it always makes me grateful that I have chosen this path for my life.

Spiritual Wisdom from Cracker Barrel?

2006-11-20T23:37:00.000-05:00

As I begin writing this I have just returned home from visiting with Jonathan and Hillary at Cracker Barrel. I had a dinner meeting, but they wanted to hang out with me a little for my birthday-- which is tomorrow. So, I met them there for hot chocolate. As always, we had a great conversation. They've been married 6 months are great friends to me. Jonathan just returned from a 10-day conference in Australia where he was involved in some business training.

So, in a few hours I will turn 32 years old. All I can think is-- wow! It seems like the last 10 years have passed so quickly. If all goes as planned, 2 years from now I should be Dr. Morgan. (Although I'm still not sure if I can get used to being called by that title. I don't even like for students to call me Mr. Morgan.) I just finished most of my assignments for this semester. I have one more due after Thanksgiving holiday, and then I get to rest for a month. I honestly believe I have earned this rest. It is been 18 months of basically nonstop assignments. My mind and body are exhausted-- to say the least. ha!

Today while driving to an appointment, I thought about the goodness of the Lord in my life. I see how my steps have been directed. I'm thankful God gave me an obedient heart to serve and follow Him. I also thought about how much I've grown during this process of working toward a doctorate. I'm not presumptious enough to think that a title earns me instant respect-- the way I work and treat others brings that. However, this academic process has changed me in many ways. I look at things quite differently that I did a year ago. I'm more focused on the basics of following Christ and not "pop" Christianity.

Perhaps one of the greatest changes in my life has been spiritually. In some ways, I am stronger as a follower of Christ. In other ways, I question some of the unbalanced practices in contemporary Christianity. I believe that I am willing to give my life for the cause of Christ, if necessary. But, I am less interested in building a denomination and power structure for others.

In recent months I have questioned my place in the denomination of which my family has been active for 97 years. I have questioned if I can even identify with it any longer. I have longed to discuss these issues with individuals who could help me have a balanced approach, but it seems that all doors closed to me. Even those with whom I typically ask questions seemed distant to me in my search. It is a disheartening feeling to have questions, a desire to know and practice the Truth, and to feel alone in your search. Yet, perhaps it was there that God was able to show me some things that I might have missed otherwise. In the silence and solitude, I found God providing a glimmer of light into the path that I should go.

Yesterday I sat around the lunch table with some "seasoned" men and women who have followed Christ for many years. Listening to their conversation, I sensed that with which I can identify. I sensed "genuine" experiences with the Holy Spirit and a balanced approach to God and the scripture. My background is Pentecostal, and I have an experience common to Pentecostals. However, it seems that current teaching among Pentecostals has become foreign to me. I've even questioned if I am Pentecostal. So many in the movement are running after big name preachers who can give them a word, or else they are flocking to encounter weekends so they can be delivered of generational curses. The role of the Holy Spirit has become far too mystical-- even though I understand and believe in the mystical nature of God speaking to humans today. However, I believe that much is credited to God that is simply humans' wishful thinking.

As a result of that conversation, I realized that I am Pentecostal. In fact, perhaps I'm more closely aligned with Pentecostal teaching and practice than are many individuals attending Pentecostal churches today. To me, the focus is not on what I can gain from God, but it is on using the gifts and abilities endowed to me by God to bring Him glory and serve others. While I want to see God bless individuals-- and I want to be blessed-- I believe it would do each of us good to go back and search the scripture again to see if our experiences are really biblical and balanced.

I write all of this to note that this evening, before leaving Cracker Barrel, I told our server about my spiritual dilemma. I had previously mentioned to my friends that I might try out a local church that meets in a bookstore. It is affiliated with the same denomination of which I am a member, but it has a different approach that sounds more closely aligned with my beliefs. So, later on when talking with the server, he suggested that I might like the bookstore services. I'm not saying that it was God. I look at it as a helpful suggestion. However, that comes more closely to being a "word" that I could use than many that have been spoken over me in some churches by random people who seemingly know very little about where I'm at in my walk with God. So, hopefully in a few weeks I can post my experience about the bookstore services.

And, as always, I just want to be On Mission following The Way.

Changing My Perspective

2006-10-11T21:41:00.000-04:00

If I have a word for today, it is "Perspective". It has been several days since I posted, but I have been completely exhausted from work and school work. There has also been some conflict in the office that was frustrating-- and, on top of everything else, it just zapped me of emotional energy. However, today I was reminded about the intended plan for each life-- including my own.

This afternoon I attended the funeral of Ms. Frances Rowland, the mother of Dr. Carolyn Dirksen-- one of the VPs at our university. The service was a wonderful tribute. Although I had only spoken with Ms. Rowland on a few occasions, she was always kind and gracious. Today I learned more about her life, and I was both inspired in my faith and reaffirmed in my calling.

Dr. Dirksen provided the eulogy, which was a moving experience. I will admit that tears filled my eyes to hear of the dedication that Ms. Rowland had for her family, church and community. It was evident that Ms. Rowland endured difficulty in life, but remained persistent and joyful-- because she chose to. And, her life touched so many individuals as a result. I especially appreciated Dr. Dirksen's illustration about her mother's love for people and desire to form friendships with people-- even the bag boys at the grocery store, the banker, the pharmicist, and the clerks at the gas station. Ms. Rowland understood the importance and value of each individual.

I sat there in the sanctuary of the fellowship were Ms. Rowland worshipped and could not help but think about similar individuals who served as role models for me during my childhood and teenage years. I saw their faces in my mind, and I could almost feel their embrace. Dr. Dirksen accentuated it even more when she suggested that she could almost say that today the world was left with a little less happiness, a little less love, and a little less creativity-- but that she could not say that because her mother had imparted those things into so many individuals. Those same sentiments and emotions resinated within me. I, too, have received so much from so many individuals-- and I have a responsibility to share that with others.

Over the last few years I have become discouraged with the denomination in which I have given my life. I have served it in so many ways-- even on a voluntary basis. (I was a youth pastor for 2 years without ever earning a salary). These years have proven to be difficult in finding acceptance and belonging within the church movement in which my family has labored for 97 years. I will note that I have experienced much love from many individuals within the denomination, for which I am thankful. However, it has been difficult for me to overlook the experiences in which others have taken credit of my work as their own. I have felt taken advantage of and ignored on numerous occasions. Some of this is because there is a culture within the denomination that sometimes leads to competition among ministers. I know all-too-well the feeling of isolation because I cannot provide political favors to individuals. Yet, through it all I have tried to be faithful to my church and my calling. That continues to be my desire. And, I am so thankful for the university where I work, which allows me to use the gifts and talents with which I have been blessed-- and, in turn, to bless others.

Recent months have been periods of tremendous personal growth for me. I have come to terms with the fact that my service most likely will not be within the denominational structure. Instead, I believe the door of opportunity has opened for me to use my gifts to serve the broader community. As a child I felt a sense of destiny, as if I would excel to "greatness". I am now convinced that "greatness" is not esteem in the eyes of those with power. Rather, it is simply to share love and happiness with others on a daily basis-- even in the small things.

As for the frustration of the last few weeks, I realize that I cannot expect to be respected always as I should (or even at the level of respect I show to others). Nonetheless, I still must make the choice to continue to respect others and share with them the gifts imparted to me. In my heart, I know that I have much to offer others. I have much to give to the community around me. I believe I do this regularly. Yet, in the midst of my recent exhaustion and relational conflict, I think I was losing focus of the true reason for which we all exist. The negativity that sometimes clouds one's perspective was almost overwhelming around me.

And yet, today I was reminded that being "on mission" means doing the simple things that encourage love, happiness, and goodwill in this world. I believe that is really what it means to follow The Way.

Thank you, Ms. Rowland, for a wonderful and inspiring life well-lived. And, thank you Dr. Dirksen for your words today that reminded me about the true purpose for living and introduced me to the amazing person who was your mother.

I end this day with a different-- and better-- perspective than the one with which I began my day. I have been reminded that The Way is One of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

Casting Votes or Casting Judgment?

2006-09-28T00:09:00.000-04:00

It is nearing election time, and I am trying to determine which candidate I favor. And, what has usually been an easy decision for me has become a rather difficult choice this year. I do not know whether I should vote blue or red. Am I an elephant or a donkey (okay, don't have too much fun with that!!)? Will it be a Republican or Democrat? Typically, I vote for the candidate that I feel is best qualified for the job and shares my values, which has almost always been Republican. I have never voted for a Democrat for president, governor, or any other major office. I have voted for Democrats for some local positions, however. In recent months I have become disillusionned with the Republican Party. I listen to pastors and church members suggest that, unlike the Democratic Party, the Republican Party espouses biblical morals and values. Yet, I see deception and corruption in both parties. Of course, in some sense I expect no less from either party. It is, after all, politics. :-) But, I do have trouble with individuals suggesting that one party is more "christian" than another. If that is the case, then the actions must be aligned with scripture. Does that mean that it is okay for an elected official to lie in order to get a policy passed that will appease "christians"? I don't think so. And this is my dilemma with the "God favors Republican agendas" philosophy so prevalent in many evangelical circles. We have been too quick to support an individual based upon party affiliation, regardless of that man's or woman's character. To me, integrity in the way something is obtained is just as important as obtaining it. If someone feels that abortion is morally wrong, is it not morally wrong for an elected official to be deceptive in the way he or she goes about getting that legislation passed? I realize there are some good politicians, but they are few and far between. I believe the system has a way of corrupting those serving in it. Sadly, I believe this is also true in most "christian" organizations as well. In the end, I believe God's heart is with people-- especially the poor, widows, fatherless, and those in greatest need. While politicans say one thing in public and the use this war as a means to boost the economy and their personal interests/investments, the real issues at home are seemingly ignored. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate our military. I am thankful for the soldiers who protect our freedom and allow us to enjoy this great country. But I cannot help but believe that we have no clue about all of the implications involved in this present war and the political moves that are taking place-- at the expense of so many men and women who are protecting us. And, as for which issues are right and wrong, I'm not sure I even know anymore. It was so much easier when I lived in my small hometown in Mississippi. It is always easier to say that circumstances and situations are wrong when you don't know individuals who live out those experiences every day. I turn to the scripture for guidance, but then I sometimes see both points-of-view. That brings up the whole issue about whose interpretation of scripture is correct? So, I have yet to determine the candidate that will receive my vote on election day. I do know that I no longer feel one political party is more closely aligned with my values than another party. I also struggle with what choices individuals within a free society should have available to them-- whether or not they are in agreement with "christian" values or not. I think at the moment I can say that I believe everyone has a right to choose the path for his or her life. This is a free country. Rather than trying to legislate morality and "christian" values by making certain actions illegal, perhaps "christians" could be more effective at modeling real biblical values and creating a country in which such actions are not illeglal, but unthinkable. At least I still have time to make my decision about the election. In the meantime, I'm just going to do my best to stay on mission and follow The Way.

Random Thoughts-- pretty much senseless

2006-09-26T23:16:00.000-04:00

It has been two days since my last post, but last night was filled with homework and preparing for a leadership seminar that I presented today-- Leadership from a Biblical Worldview. (And, in case you are interested, I think it was successful). I'm now preparing for a fast trip to Mississippi for the weekend-- but not before participatig in the celebration events at the university in honor of our university president, who has served in that position for 20 years. (Maybe later on I'll post about that and tell some of the great things that have happened at the university in recent years). In Mississippi I will be speaking this weekend, and I will have a chance to spend an afternoon and overnight in my hometown as well. It will be nice to visit with my parents, grandparents, etc.

Today was quite busy, but it was a good day. I was able to accomplish several things at work, and I'm thrilled to be "caught up" in my coursework. The program is very demanding, but I know it is worth it. I have just one more year of classes... then the dissertation. I am so thankful for this opportunity, especially to my mom and dad-- they sacrificed so much to provide me the opportunity to receive and education. I owe my parents so much, and I am so thankful that we enjoy a close bond together.

Speaking of family, my aunt Wanda (wife of my dad's brother) from Mississippi visited with me yesterday. She and her mother were on their way to Gatlinburg. They stopped in Cleveland and had lunch with me. I really enjoyed their visit. After leaving the restuarant, it took me an unusually long time to get back to the university. The main highway was filled with people waiving American flags. They were waiting on the funeral procession of a hometown soldier killed in the war. It was an amazing sight to see so many individuals paying their respect to the family of the deceased. It was quite sobering as well. I know that I am indebted to this soldier-- and so many others like him-- for the opportunity to live in a freedom.

And as if I didn't eat enough at lunch, last night after work I went to eat with a good buddy of mine. (One of my favorite things to do is to gather some students together to eat). He and his wife are students at the university. She was still in class, so he went with me to grab some dinner. The three of us eat dinner together frequently, but I've been traveling so much lately that I have missed eating with him and his wife. So, it was good to get to hang out.

Well, I believe the last two days have finally caught up with me. I'm exhausted and going to bed. I'll have to read this tomorrow to see if it even makes sense. I'm just rambling with my thoughts, I think-- or do I? :-)

If you have taken the time to read this, I wish you a super day. (It is the least I can do *smile*).

Gratitude

2006-09-24T23:41:00.000-04:00

Grateful for so many things... and wanting to live with a sense of gratitude each day.

Lately I have been reading some books by Erwin McManus, a leader of Mosaic in Los Angeles. Erwin's books are really ministering to me-- seem to be right where I am at in my spiritual journey. Uprising and The Barbarian Way are the two books I just completed. (My post from last night was influenced by The Barbarian Way). So tonight I am thinknig about Uprising, which devotes a whole section on gratitude and how it unleashes generosity within us. This book deals with character development, and I highly recommend it.

Tonight I reflect on the blessings of God. I am thankful for my parents and my other loved ones who helped train me to be a Christ follower. I am thankful for the opportunities that I have been given to study and learn, which increasingly opens my eyes and mind to follow The Way in freedom and true joy. I am grateful for the place where I work, which is more than just a job; it is a calling and a lifestyle. I am also thankful for the many opportunities to share with others simple words, deeds, and expressions of affirmation, love, and encouragement. While it often seems as if I accomplish only small things, I believe that what I am really doing is planting seeds that grow within the lives of the recipients and ultimately impacts positively the Kingdom of God.

So as I take some needed rest after a busy weekend, and also knowing that I have a very busy week ahead, I pause to offer thanksgiving to the One who is my best friend, my strength, and my reason for living. I am thankful for the opportunity to grow in grace and follow The Way.

appreciating the past... but not staying there

2006-09-24T00:14:00.000-04:00

Tonight I was working on some assignments for what seems to be my never-ending academic pursuit of degrees. Although I enjoy learning and hope to study other things, I do hope this is the final "degree" for me. Anyway, I read an interesting concept about small groups. Arrow, McGrath, and Berdahl (in Small groups as complex systems, 2000) explain the changes that take place among groups means that they will not always look, regulate, and function as they once did or do at the present. Okay, so it is a no-brainer. We all know this. But, how often do groups and even the broader organizations try to operate according to previous methods? It was once believed that groups all functioned the same and that all group members were able to have a fairly equal role within the group. However, it is now understood that individual experiences, culture, and major events each play a vital role in how groups operate. Groups are complex. Group members think in different ways and have different values and norms. This changes the way decisions are reached, as well as the type of decisions that are made.

Let's say a group happens to be the main decision-making body within an organization. Is this group "in touch" with the extended diversity that is impacted by the group's decisions? Does this group think that its decisions can be generalized to all other segments of the organization? If it is a large organization, has the group considered how effective its decisions will be in rural, suburban, and urban locations? What about among different ethnicities? What does this suggest about the types of decisions that should even be discussed?

Perhaps it is fair to conclude that most groups (and organizations) are uncertain where they are going. We live in a fluid culture and rapidly changing times. Maybe that is why so many individuals and organizations are clinging to what they know and understand. Instead of building upon their past-- appreciating the good and learning from the bad, they are trying to replicate the past in the present. However, I fear such action will have detrimental results to the organization. Instead of clinging to that which was, we must move forward to that which is and will be. We must be innovative. We must encourage creativity. We must be willing to permit failure (and forgive it) as we try and find what works best for today.

As you might have guessed, I am thinking about the modern church. Although I desire to maintain the teachings of Jesus Christ, I am less interested in maintaining any specific type of structure or method. I am not opposed to leadership and accountability; they are biblical and necessary. However, I believe the modern church has adopted a business model over a biblical model for its style of leadership. I do not think we will see the results we desire if we tighten the grip on current and emerging leaders because they have different ways of viewing ministry. Instead, we must give them room to experiment, create, and even fail. Rather than restricting their power, we must empower them with the authority to minister as they are led by the Holy Spirit. And, we must remember that we are co-laborers together. We are not in competition, and we do not have to feel that a different method is heretical or in any way demeaning to the method we might prefer.

We are all different, but we are all part of the same Body. Let us embrace our diversity, love one another, support each other, accept differing ways of serving others, and endeavor to help one another stay on mission as followers of Christ.

No more domesticated living

2006-09-23T00:08:00.000-04:00

A new day has just arrived. It is a few minutes after midnight, and a long week has ended. I have more work to do this weekend, but at least I am finally home. I've been on the road most of this week-- in a total of 4 states-- in order to teach at an extension campus of the university where I work.

And, it is a new day in my life as well. Spiritually I am in a place of seeking to know where I belong. I have grown tired of organized religion, but I am questionning if I should abandon it altogether. Do I leave it completely, or do I try to make a positive difference in trying to bring transformation to it? I don't have a clear answer on that just yet, so I am waiting and seeking to know the path in which I am to move forward. Regardless, I can not do it alone. Thankfully, I don't believe I will have to. I am only one of many individuals my age who are tired of "church-as-usual" and the domesticated complacency that seems to prevail in modern Christianity.

I am "on mission" with my work, my spiritual quest, and as a Christ follower. I sense my own transformation taking place each day, and I am determined to move forward as I follow the teachings of Christ. No longer do I want to settle for domesticated living; I desire to pursue the humanity to which God has called me-- to love, to serve, to create, and to enjoy life.

I'm just getting started with this blog, but check back often. I hope to record the thoughts, struggles, questions, and (hopefully) answers I experience as I stay "On Mission" as a Follower of The Way.